a madness within.
what am i supposed to know. riding this intangible wave. lurid. im swallowing a recurrent ache. and my throat is sore. so very sore. something far greater than what i can name. i cant imagine how i am meant to present myself. i dont see it. cant see what it all properly.
and i wonder if i am mad. my world of illusions. all in my fucking head.
but i can taste a subtle mist. and wrap my tongue around a hidden chord. and then it promptly vanishes...dissipates more like it...i cant hold on...i dont know how....like a heart gasping to remain lodged, warm, at home.
only my heart has never been the problem.
i can feel it. i know there is something more. something unseen. but how...how can i meld? how do i...
how can i become part of a world so very different from what i have ever known. but i want it...im dying for it...
a world only in my mind?
and i wonder if i am mad. my world of illusions. all in my fucking head.
but i can taste a subtle mist. and wrap my tongue around a hidden chord. and then it promptly vanishes...dissipates more like it...i cant hold on...i dont know how....like a heart gasping to remain lodged, warm, at home.
only my heart has never been the problem.
i can feel it. i know there is something more. something unseen. but how...how can i meld? how do i...
how can i become part of a world so very different from what i have ever known. but i want it...im dying for it...
a world only in my mind?