held too long in check
so its been a bit. im suddenly inspired to babble. mainly for my own amusement of course. or release. met a friends fiance today. interesting. though, surprisingly i like him. confident and protective of her. as if she needs a man to stand up for her.
but i suppose it could be worse. and im quite sure, somewhere hidden within, is her desire to be the princess. -the- princess.
im feeling tense. as if i need to be twisted and pulled in a dozen or so directions and all will be right with the world again.
what do you do if you may be falling for a friend. different one, mind you. or me. self. what. what.
im laughing at myself at the moment.
and im fascinated by eyeliner lately. i want smudges. dark jungle smudges and blood red lips. ive been promised that i can cause havoc, post-wedding ceremony. if i do ever marry, it will not be traditional. until then, i shall be a good loyal little bridemaid.
spending far too much time, than is good for my soul, in a church.