lilbubblesfairy

How long does it take? when does the night crying stop? it's not that my life isn't fun and exciting I just feel I am missing a little piece all the time. Why do I do this to myself?

I am trying, i am trying really hard and it jut isnt working. I feel like I made the biggest mistake of my life by trying to do the right thing and now I am going to be punished for the rest of my life. I can't help it every song on the radio every tv show every memory makes me think of being with you. I have tried being on my own and seeing other ( Read more... )

So I was looking for a new beginning or a closer and today brought neither. I put my heart on the table and recieved a friend hug. What is that? arggggg I wish I could turn off my heart I feel so stuck.

so I bailed, I had a horrible day and wasn't ready. I don't think I could have dealt with the extra let down. Do I really want to do this to myself tomorrow? I think maybe I should just stay under my web of disillusionment.... I like to atleast keep hope.......

So tomorrows the day, I can't take it any more its time to talk, and atleast get it over with. I cant keep torturing myself. What do i say to you? Is there anything I can say to make things better? I miss u so bad.

it's always this time, late at night when I get stuck. I try to keep it out but it always creeps in. sitting at home listening to music thinking about you. Dancing in the kitchen, picking blackberries, running through the yard, tickle fights in bed, late night phone calls, cuddling to sleep, tight hugs, picnics outside, secret places in the ( Read more... )

My next great memory was in September, it was my birthday. We had stayed in touch every night since I left and the only thing I wanted for my birthday was to see him and hug him and giggle like crazy! So i drove up to stay with my grandparents for several days, when I got there it was the most wonderful feeling ever be missed that much. I got ( Read more... )

I heart Lindsey she keeps me sane and crazy all at the same time!

you consume my thoughts I can't think about anything but you. I cant sleep, I cant eat, I can't be without you. I love you