Ninja ~

In old movies people used to say, "I love you so much, I want to shout it from the rooftops so everyone will know!" Because we live in an apartment building and it's winter and facebook will reach a bizillion more people than my 'outside voice', I wanted to publicly express how I feel about you - my husband - on our 3 year anniversary.

( Read more... )

I sent a message to Ninja this morning ( Read more... )

Ninja ~

You know how excited I was to get married.  I had a romanticized vision of what my life would be like as a wife.  Turning into a domestic goddess was something I'd always dreamed about.  When we met, I was sure I had met the one.  Things seemed perfect...

And then we hit some bumps.  Some were little speed bumps ~ easy to get over ~ others ( Read more... )

What is your idea of romance?  Is it dinner by candlelight?  Rose petals scattered around the house?  Walks on the beach?

That was my idea of romance...actually I would still find those acts really romantic...but somewhere in the last three years of togetherness with Ninja ~ particularly in the last year of married life ~ I've found that my ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

It's ironic to me that no sooner do I write on here about how ornery Ninja has been, than he gives me a day that I have not one complaint.  Actually ... quite the opposite.  Yesterday was one of the best days we've ever had together.  Although I don't feel like a relationship of any sort is exactly like what's shown in the movies, I feel like ( Read more... )

The last couple nights, I've had dreams that I was either pregnant or I already had a baby.  It's weird how real they've all felt.  In one of them, I can remember holding my daughter and smelling the top of her head.  I had an overwhelming feeling of love and happiness and total.....contentment.  How can a couple dreams make me reconsider all our ( Read more... )

Reading back through my journal, I think sometimes I come across as some kind of know-it-all, especially in my relationship.  I want to apologize if I've ever given off the impression that I think I'm perfect or have the perfect relationship.

I do not think that.

Actually, the reason y'all don't read about any marital issues is because I don't go ( Read more... )

...And today is not one of them.  It actually turned into one of the days were I sit here and want to stab out my eyeballs with a dull pencil instead of being ever so brutally immersed in this crap that is corporate america.  I'm looking out my window like a cat after its "being outside" cherry has been popped.  I'm fiendin' to get out of this ( Read more... )

The birthday came and went without much fanfare.

I woke up to a phone call from my mother (who's a reinstated Jehovah's Witness).  She said, "Now you know we don't celebrate birthdays, but I wanted to call and tell you the story of your birth."...(she was giggling & quite honestly, I had never heard the story so I was looking forward to it!)..." ( Read more... )