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I'm feeling somehow strange. I can not really talk about it, but I really need to, though. Well, it's not like it's forbidden to feel the way I do. It's not even like I want ... It's not like I want this person to be romantically involved with me or something. It's just... Everytime I see them, I got this feeling of want. Want to have them as a friend, a real close friend. But that won't ever be. Guess why? Even though I think they like me, there's a too big age gap between us. I'll always be the "little one". But I'm not. I'm old enough. I have a lot of experience already, for my age, so to say. I don't get it, though. Now that I realised they don't want me to be that close to them as a real friend, I try to remain quiet in their presence. Because I'm fighting more tears since that realisation than ever...
I don't know what to do. I guess I simply have to get over it.
It's not even a crush or something. Just some stupid feeling and wish to be close to someone, to be their friend...
I don't know what to do. I guess I simply have to get over it.
It's not even a crush or something. Just some stupid feeling and wish to be close to someone, to be their friend...