Decision Time
I've had a good honest chat with a friend up here in Lancaster tonight, and it's made me realise some things about the next few months of my life.
They are going to be difficult. Sounds a bit obvious for anyone in the third year of a degree, but I can't just pretend that that's the only reason. My uncle's funeral is going to be at Easter, and it will be a very emotional time for me and my entire family. That's just something that I have to accept.
Therefore, I need to save myself a lot of trouble before Easter and get as much of my work out the way before then as possible. So ideally, I need to be at the finishing stages with both of my creative writing portfolios by then. I'm going to have to work very hard in the next six weeks to achieve that, but if I can do that now then I will save myself a lot of extra stress at Easter, which is going to be a time for other things.
I have to focus right now on my university work. It sounds obvious perhaps, but before tonight I was working on my usual basis of drifting along until the pressure starts to mount nearer Easter. That's not a good way to be anyway, and last year I got very stressed because of it, so it's time for a change in perspective this year. I was also working on the basis that I would be doing several other things at this term, including going to conventions, travelling up and down the country a lot.
I think I will need a couple of breaks like Midlands Expo and Minamicon, but I don't think I'm going to do any more work on cosplay for them. It's a tough call, especially as Minamicon will be my first convention, but I don't think I'm going to be in the cosplay mood anyway around then. I think I'll just need the chance to relax and enjoy a weekend away from work. I may still wear my San costume again (or I may not), but I'm going to put all my new costume plans on hold. So you won't see anything new from me for quite a while now, probably until May Expo or even beyond, if that's what I need.
Making these decisions about work and cosplay have actually taken a great load off my mind. I was already starting to stress out about my Minamicon cosplay plans, because basically I'd have a whole outfit to make, and a wig to order from wherever the hell I could find a suitable one from - I just don't need this extra stress right now. I think I really have to start making priorities at this time, to see me through until after Easter. For me, at the moment, making this decision is the equivalent of setting down a lot of extra baggage and stress that I really didn't need to carry around.
It's also going to save me a lot of money. ^_^ It's a relief, to be honest. I know for certain that I'll enjoy both the Midlands Expo and Minamicon whether I'm in costume or not.
I think I'll also try and pull back from the internet as a whole for the rest of this term. I'll still be on here every day, just not as much. At the moment I procrastinate on it far too much. :-S
Anyway, that's me done for tonight. I feel pretty good right now, I'm just chilling out in my room after tidying it up a bit and dumping some extra, unwanted stuff down in the cellar (yay, storage space!!). I have some coconut aroma oil burning, and music playing, and I'm going to go and make myself a coffee soon and do some writing. I feel okay. :)
They are going to be difficult. Sounds a bit obvious for anyone in the third year of a degree, but I can't just pretend that that's the only reason. My uncle's funeral is going to be at Easter, and it will be a very emotional time for me and my entire family. That's just something that I have to accept.
Therefore, I need to save myself a lot of trouble before Easter and get as much of my work out the way before then as possible. So ideally, I need to be at the finishing stages with both of my creative writing portfolios by then. I'm going to have to work very hard in the next six weeks to achieve that, but if I can do that now then I will save myself a lot of extra stress at Easter, which is going to be a time for other things.
I have to focus right now on my university work. It sounds obvious perhaps, but before tonight I was working on my usual basis of drifting along until the pressure starts to mount nearer Easter. That's not a good way to be anyway, and last year I got very stressed because of it, so it's time for a change in perspective this year. I was also working on the basis that I would be doing several other things at this term, including going to conventions, travelling up and down the country a lot.
I think I will need a couple of breaks like Midlands Expo and Minamicon, but I don't think I'm going to do any more work on cosplay for them. It's a tough call, especially as Minamicon will be my first convention, but I don't think I'm going to be in the cosplay mood anyway around then. I think I'll just need the chance to relax and enjoy a weekend away from work. I may still wear my San costume again (or I may not), but I'm going to put all my new costume plans on hold. So you won't see anything new from me for quite a while now, probably until May Expo or even beyond, if that's what I need.
Making these decisions about work and cosplay have actually taken a great load off my mind. I was already starting to stress out about my Minamicon cosplay plans, because basically I'd have a whole outfit to make, and a wig to order from wherever the hell I could find a suitable one from - I just don't need this extra stress right now. I think I really have to start making priorities at this time, to see me through until after Easter. For me, at the moment, making this decision is the equivalent of setting down a lot of extra baggage and stress that I really didn't need to carry around.
It's also going to save me a lot of money. ^_^ It's a relief, to be honest. I know for certain that I'll enjoy both the Midlands Expo and Minamicon whether I'm in costume or not.
I think I'll also try and pull back from the internet as a whole for the rest of this term. I'll still be on here every day, just not as much. At the moment I procrastinate on it far too much. :-S
Anyway, that's me done for tonight. I feel pretty good right now, I'm just chilling out in my room after tidying it up a bit and dumping some extra, unwanted stuff down in the cellar (yay, storage space!!). I have some coconut aroma oil burning, and music playing, and I'm going to go and make myself a coffee soon and do some writing. I feel okay. :)