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when did i become such a selfish heartless bitch? GOD. my friends have REAL crap going on. they're losing people. they're mom is in the hospital. they're grandfather had passed away. they're grades a crap no matter how much they try to fix them. they have family that REALLY don't understand them. they're BROKE. and what do i do? i complain about my crappy grades, that i COULD fix. i complain about my stupid guy problems. which are all my fault. i complain and complain and complain. about stupid crap. my life is fine. my life is GOOD. i should be HAPPY. there's nothing wrong with my life that i can't fix. GOD. Jackie has so much crap going on. her mom is DYING. her mom has some kind of rare disease. her mom probably won't survive. she will have to go back to New York if her mom does die. she's trying to fix her chemistry grade. but all of this is keeping her from doing so. she can barely sleep lately. she life is crap now. and i sit her and fucking cry about how i'm fucking up my life. i could fix it. her life is fucked up. and she can't do anything about it. GOD. why am i so selfish? i don't deserve anything. i'm a heartless bitch. but...complaining about it is just going with everything i'm saying. i won't fix it. i'll just complain about it while my friends' lifes are really getting screwed up. because apparently that's what i do.
i'm done. i'm going to sleep.
i'm done. i'm going to sleep.