she's gone.
today. one of the worst but best days of my life. at one point all i wanted to do was give up. i just wanted to go to sleep and wake up when all of this is over. but i'm ok now. i think.
anyway...school was whatever. blah. i don't know. doesn't matter.
but...i CAN NOT wait for next semester. yep.
left french early to go to hospital. found out that they had already taken her off of the machines. we were just waiting for her to die. so i got to the hospital. and i was in the waiting room. and people were complaining about stuff. like Diane's best friend came in and started yelling at her. telling her it wasn't her time to go. that she promised to be there for her. she promised to be her brides maid. and everyone was all...wtf. and Corithian got really upset. and then Layla, who's Diane's ex-daughter-in-law, starts all this crap with AC (which...that isn't how you spell his name. but that's how it's pronounced...), who is Layla's ex-husband, and Diane's son. so anyway...Layla starts telling him that he's guilty that he never spent time with his mom. and that was the only reason he was there. and then she started all of this crap with Brandon, her son. and like...i don't know. but it was dumb. so anyway...my mom, brother, and i went to the house to get the food one of the church ladies was dropping off. then we got back to hospital and we went back to see her. and i was...scary. i don't want to continue with that. but...we stayed in there for awhile. then i went back to the waiting room. i was only in there for like 2 minutes before one of the nurses came in and told us that her heart rate and breathing and such were dropping. so we all like ran in there. and watched her die. which...is a blunt way to put it...but yeah. there were a lot of tears and such. i saw 5 of the strongest guys i know cry today. well...one of them was my brother. but...yeah. my dad, uncle, AC, grandfather, and brother were all crying. which just made me cry even more. but yeah. my grandfather is taking it pretty hard. my whole family is. and...i don't know. i'm done talking about it now.
but then i wanted to go home. so Jesse came and picked my brother and i up and took us home. ...and then he said at my house. he left about 9:15. but anyway...so that was interesting. mainly because my brother wouldn't leave the living room. and me and Jesse were all...on the couch. and my brother was in the chair. and me Jesse were all...making out. and my brother was all...sits there. and i'm all..../twitch. and yeah. but then we went outside. and it was all...raining. and yeah. i'm....not going on with that. but yeah. it was good and happy and yay. and yeah. i'm done with this now.
Christine...i really hope you're going to be ok. this isn't to make you feel bad at all...but when you texted me telling me that...i was at the hospital. and i read it. and i got up, handed my phone to my mom, let her read it, and then broke down crying. partially for Diane, partially for you. i really hope you get better. i love you.
death. there's too much of it.
today was an odd day. and it's nowhere near over. i still have a french project to do. i'm going to up really late tonight. /dies.
i just want to go to sleep.
anyway...school was whatever. blah. i don't know. doesn't matter.
but...i CAN NOT wait for next semester. yep.
left french early to go to hospital. found out that they had already taken her off of the machines. we were just waiting for her to die. so i got to the hospital. and i was in the waiting room. and people were complaining about stuff. like Diane's best friend came in and started yelling at her. telling her it wasn't her time to go. that she promised to be there for her. she promised to be her brides maid. and everyone was all...wtf. and Corithian got really upset. and then Layla, who's Diane's ex-daughter-in-law, starts all this crap with AC (which...that isn't how you spell his name. but that's how it's pronounced...), who is Layla's ex-husband, and Diane's son. so anyway...Layla starts telling him that he's guilty that he never spent time with his mom. and that was the only reason he was there. and then she started all of this crap with Brandon, her son. and like...i don't know. but it was dumb. so anyway...my mom, brother, and i went to the house to get the food one of the church ladies was dropping off. then we got back to hospital and we went back to see her. and i was...scary. i don't want to continue with that. but...we stayed in there for awhile. then i went back to the waiting room. i was only in there for like 2 minutes before one of the nurses came in and told us that her heart rate and breathing and such were dropping. so we all like ran in there. and watched her die. which...is a blunt way to put it...but yeah. there were a lot of tears and such. i saw 5 of the strongest guys i know cry today. well...one of them was my brother. but...yeah. my dad, uncle, AC, grandfather, and brother were all crying. which just made me cry even more. but yeah. my grandfather is taking it pretty hard. my whole family is. and...i don't know. i'm done talking about it now.
but then i wanted to go home. so Jesse came and picked my brother and i up and took us home. ...and then he said at my house. he left about 9:15. but anyway...so that was interesting. mainly because my brother wouldn't leave the living room. and me and Jesse were all...on the couch. and my brother was in the chair. and me Jesse were all...making out. and my brother was all...sits there. and i'm all..../twitch. and yeah. but then we went outside. and it was all...raining. and yeah. i'm....not going on with that. but yeah. it was good and happy and yay. and yeah. i'm done with this now.
Christine...i really hope you're going to be ok. this isn't to make you feel bad at all...but when you texted me telling me that...i was at the hospital. and i read it. and i got up, handed my phone to my mom, let her read it, and then broke down crying. partially for Diane, partially for you. i really hope you get better. i love you.
death. there's too much of it.
today was an odd day. and it's nowhere near over. i still have a french project to do. i'm going to up really late tonight. /dies.
i just want to go to sleep.