I wanna die. I don't have anything to live for so why should I live.

The day started out normal enough. I woke up this morning thinking that everything was going to be amazing like it was gonna be a good day right? Well, up to about 9 pm it was a fairly good day I mean it was normal enough. So. yeah. my grandma is schizophrenic and she sees like ( Read more... )

And I saw The Social Network. You know the facebook movie? I liked it I wanted to see Let Me In, but it's not playing around here. Anyway. On with life. I got home about an hour ago and I come home to my grandma insulting and yelling at me and I honestly barely slept at all yesterday (Friday), because she wanted/needed me in there and it just makes ( Read more... )

'Cuz I still feel that way.

I miss being happy. I can't really remember a time I was truly happy after the age of six. That was before my uncle died. I loved him with all my heart I still have not gotten over it same with my grandma she is grieving herself to death.
I have came so close to ripping my skin open with my razor or knife. I really ( Read more... )

I start college Monday...I am not looking forward to it....

OMFG!! I am going to go see Panic At The Disco on November 4th on the Rockband Live Tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (hopefully)

I have just been getting more and more suicidal lately and I don't think I can stand life anymore...

I wish I was dead...

I'm so happy....kinda well I'm happy for that....my dad ( Read more... )

I hate this place i call home there is nothing to do. My parents won't lemme out of the house. This goddamn place makes me more and more depressed and suicidal and my medication isn't really working anymore i hope i die in my sleep tonight.

and on top of that I'm really bored....

i am so bored....school sucks....school makes me more suicidal and hopeless......

i feel like my boyfriend doesn't care about me anymore....