I could go crazy here
So it's been a total of 3 weeks that I haven't had a job and haven't had a car. I've been trapped in this apartment with just sad netflix movies and so much work to do around here. I never really unpacked from July (as usual). and the first day of my seclusion i was on fire...unpacked tons of boxes, cleaned up...then it seems the second day it all sunk in and now I'm paralyzed. finish an apartment I may have to leave because I can't afford it? each day though, I'm like "this is the day!" and i sit down for one cup of coffee, one show and then i'm there for the rest of the day. I do look for jobs while I'm sitting here, just can't bring myself to be motivated to be productive around here. Friends have flown in...they're worried, I'm worried...just want the hurt and sadness to leave. i'm just suffocating.