Goodbye year of the Snake, hello year of the Horse!
So far 2014 is off to a bit of a rough start. My best friend was saying that we are in the last throes of the Year of the Snake and I guess that Snake is not thrilled about giving way to the Horse. I imagine 2013 whipping around all over, throwing flecks of poison venom off its fangs and where the poison lands in our lives we get a little chaos. I suppose I wish I had talked to her earlier so maybe I could brace myself better, but honestly, how does one brace oneself for unexpected chaos? You don’t, really… you just move through it.
My relationship status change is affecting me more and differently than I thought it would. My Dad is in the hospital after a heart attack over this past weekend. Small events here and there, which I was looking forward to, have been cancelled or rearranged. I have been having a hard time feeling motivated at work (though my lack of motivation still seems to produce better work habits/ethics than some of my colleagues’ lack of motivation) and morale is low at work in general.
I started looking online to find a therapist that my insurance will work with. I can’t say I am super thrilled with my insurance either; they are not easy to navigate or work with. In order to be eligible for EAP or whatever, I have to call the toll free number. Since my job is to be on the phones at work, I can’t really do it during work hours. I guess I will do it Tuesday during my day off. I really want to start seeing someone who can help me put myself back together. I have some tools that I learned with past therapists, but I don’t appear to be using them effectively just now, or perhaps I have changed too much since then. It’s been over 10 years now since I last saw a therapist over a long period of time that was actually helpful. I wish I could find him, he was really awesome!
Snakey 2013 had a lot of great things about it and a lot of less than great things. I don’t want to kick it to the curb or say too much negative about it, but I do want to have hope and good feelings toward the rest of 2014. Come on Horse and let’s get going!
My relationship status change is affecting me more and differently than I thought it would. My Dad is in the hospital after a heart attack over this past weekend. Small events here and there, which I was looking forward to, have been cancelled or rearranged. I have been having a hard time feeling motivated at work (though my lack of motivation still seems to produce better work habits/ethics than some of my colleagues’ lack of motivation) and morale is low at work in general.
I started looking online to find a therapist that my insurance will work with. I can’t say I am super thrilled with my insurance either; they are not easy to navigate or work with. In order to be eligible for EAP or whatever, I have to call the toll free number. Since my job is to be on the phones at work, I can’t really do it during work hours. I guess I will do it Tuesday during my day off. I really want to start seeing someone who can help me put myself back together. I have some tools that I learned with past therapists, but I don’t appear to be using them effectively just now, or perhaps I have changed too much since then. It’s been over 10 years now since I last saw a therapist over a long period of time that was actually helpful. I wish I could find him, he was really awesome!
Snakey 2013 had a lot of great things about it and a lot of less than great things. I don’t want to kick it to the curb or say too much negative about it, but I do want to have hope and good feelings toward the rest of 2014. Come on Horse and let’s get going!