Time for a cigarette.
I miss Zach right now.
I slept at his house last night and woke up to him sitting on top of me this morning, asking if I would like a chai tea from starbucks.
He's so dang cute.
He told me that he was in love with me.
And though it is strange for me... I must say, I am head over heels in love with him too.
This will be the man that I will marry.
How do I know this... It's the oh so common answer...
"I just do"
So surreal, so weird, so want to put my walls up.
So don't know if I should be saying any of this.
All my fears in the world are coming out.
Is he only this sweet because we just met?
Is he still in love with his ex?
What in the heck is wrong with him?
I think I want to find something wrong.
And then for the first time ever.. I really don't.
I can't stop thinking about him...
I can't stop freakin' talking about him..
I'm sure I'm annoying everyone around me..
I'm never like this.
Brittany read the note today that he put in my purse...
Yes he puts cute little notes in my purse!
She started to cry and had to stop reading it.
I want to do all the nice things in the world for him.. and I don't even know what these things are... everything I think of is probably cheesy to a girl.. so I can't imagine how they are to a man. I bought him a cute painting. I hope it arrives soon. Do I just give it to him? I bought us matching keys as well to put on chains... I'm so lame.
But I have never felt this way before.. I thought I had. I was wrong.
I just don't want to get my heart broken. I've had so many bad experiences with men.
I don't want him to still think about his ex.
Does he wish I was more like her? Does he still wish they were together? Does he still think about her? Does he still have pictures, momentos? (sp?)
Ugh... I hate when my jealous side comes out.
I don't even know how to look at him, I don't know how to act, I feel like a school girl.
I feel selfish. I feel out of my element. I want to scream and cry and jump up and down with excitement all at once.
Who am I?
I have finally met Mr. Wonderful and it's everything I could imagine and more and I don't know how to handle it.. just do with me as you please.
I slept at his house last night and woke up to him sitting on top of me this morning, asking if I would like a chai tea from starbucks.
He's so dang cute.
He told me that he was in love with me.
And though it is strange for me... I must say, I am head over heels in love with him too.
This will be the man that I will marry.
How do I know this... It's the oh so common answer...
"I just do"
So surreal, so weird, so want to put my walls up.
So don't know if I should be saying any of this.
All my fears in the world are coming out.
Is he only this sweet because we just met?
Is he still in love with his ex?
What in the heck is wrong with him?
I think I want to find something wrong.
And then for the first time ever.. I really don't.
I can't stop thinking about him...
I can't stop freakin' talking about him..
I'm sure I'm annoying everyone around me..
I'm never like this.
Brittany read the note today that he put in my purse...
Yes he puts cute little notes in my purse!
She started to cry and had to stop reading it.
I want to do all the nice things in the world for him.. and I don't even know what these things are... everything I think of is probably cheesy to a girl.. so I can't imagine how they are to a man. I bought him a cute painting. I hope it arrives soon. Do I just give it to him? I bought us matching keys as well to put on chains... I'm so lame.
But I have never felt this way before.. I thought I had. I was wrong.
I just don't want to get my heart broken. I've had so many bad experiences with men.
I don't want him to still think about his ex.
Does he wish I was more like her? Does he still wish they were together? Does he still think about her? Does he still have pictures, momentos? (sp?)
Ugh... I hate when my jealous side comes out.
I don't even know how to look at him, I don't know how to act, I feel like a school girl.
I feel selfish. I feel out of my element. I want to scream and cry and jump up and down with excitement all at once.
Who am I?
I have finally met Mr. Wonderful and it's everything I could imagine and more and I don't know how to handle it.. just do with me as you please.