Two weeks.
Just 14 days and I will be a first time home owner.. woo hoo.
I cannot wait to get in there and start doing everything that I want to.
Cleaning. Painting. Tiling. New appliances. New hardware. All of the other craziness that goes along with having a house.. including plenty that I'm sure I'm not aware of quite yet.. it's just so exciting.
I hope I am well by this time. I have not been feeling good and eating has been extremely difficult. I am up to one small meal and maybe a snack a day.. all vegan.. and I am keeping it down for the most part. It sucks. I'm hungry.. but I just hurt and am sick.
I did pretty much nothing today. I slept, napped, and napped... and it felt good, my body appreciated it.
I hung out with Zach for a while.
Once again... wonderful.
Still scared to say the things I'm really thinking.
Sydney tells me to just keep it to myself for now.
Of course... nothing bad. He's just so amazing.
I don't know what it is about him...
I started a facebook... interesting how many people I see on there that I forgot existed...
Most I wish I was still forgetting that they existed.
I can't shake this cough. I feel like there is a ball of mucus stuck in my throat.
It's gross and annoying.
My head still hurts... bad...
Advil along with all my other meds helps a little.. but not for too long.
If it still feels this way by Friday I may call the doctor again to see if anything can be done.
Maybe another shot in my ass will help.
Life at this moment is scaring me.
I know this blog is so random.
But that's how the thoughts in my head are flowing right now.
I'm terrified to be in another relationship.. even though this one feels different.
I don't want to get hurt.
I don't want to get too attached.
I don't want him to still have feelings for someone else.
I want to be ignorant.
I need to go to bed.
P.S. I spend over $200 at JCrew today.. on just 3 items.. I'm dumb.
I cannot wait to get in there and start doing everything that I want to.
Cleaning. Painting. Tiling. New appliances. New hardware. All of the other craziness that goes along with having a house.. including plenty that I'm sure I'm not aware of quite yet.. it's just so exciting.
I hope I am well by this time. I have not been feeling good and eating has been extremely difficult. I am up to one small meal and maybe a snack a day.. all vegan.. and I am keeping it down for the most part. It sucks. I'm hungry.. but I just hurt and am sick.
I did pretty much nothing today. I slept, napped, and napped... and it felt good, my body appreciated it.
I hung out with Zach for a while.
Once again... wonderful.
Still scared to say the things I'm really thinking.
Sydney tells me to just keep it to myself for now.
Of course... nothing bad. He's just so amazing.
I don't know what it is about him...
I started a facebook... interesting how many people I see on there that I forgot existed...
Most I wish I was still forgetting that they existed.
I can't shake this cough. I feel like there is a ball of mucus stuck in my throat.
It's gross and annoying.
My head still hurts... bad...
Advil along with all my other meds helps a little.. but not for too long.
If it still feels this way by Friday I may call the doctor again to see if anything can be done.
Maybe another shot in my ass will help.
Life at this moment is scaring me.
I know this blog is so random.
But that's how the thoughts in my head are flowing right now.
I'm terrified to be in another relationship.. even though this one feels different.
I don't want to get hurt.
I don't want to get too attached.
I don't want him to still have feelings for someone else.
I want to be ignorant.
I need to go to bed.
P.S. I spend over $200 at JCrew today.. on just 3 items.. I'm dumb.