Why Did I End Up Falling In Love With You? [chapter 9/9] - 2
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
(why did I end up falling in love with you?)
Chapter: 9/9 (PART 2)
Pairing[s]:
-OVER ALL: Yunho-x-kitty!Jae, SooMan-x-kitty!Jae, Yoochun-x-kitty!Jae (actually, Yoochun-kitty!Jae is VERY VERY small... >>)
-THIS CHAPTER: Yunho-x-kitty!Jae
Rating: PG-13 (this chapter)
Rating: NC-17 (the whole)
Warning[s]: UNDERAGE (Jaejoong is 15 currently), Jaejoong’s a cat (that’s what kitty!jae means), sex slavery, FIRST PERSON P.O.V. (jaejoong’s), AU, not beta-'d
Word Count: 2,100
Disclaimer: Don’t own people, just story
Summary: Fees are the cat-human population of the world that just boomed a few years ago. The world didn’t accept it first because it was taking babies and changing them into mutants, into cats. However, that was before people found out they could be used for their personal gain without repercussions. We use them for sex, for cleaning, for gifts, for entertainment. But always sex. The year’s 2XXX and this is the story of Fee 1029.
Note: Here's part 2, sorry i had to split it up >< grrr livejournal
||chapter nine part 1|| ||epilogue||
-/-/-/- Jaejoong’s POV -/-/-/-
I didn’t know what to expect when my bed moved but a part of me hoped that it was Yunho. I thought that maybe he had finished whatever work he was doing and wanted to cuddle or possible do just a bit more. Either way I was smiling but it faded when I saw Yoochun; I hadn’t expected to see him.
“Hello Yoochun oppa. And Yunho oppa! What’s wrong?”
I titled my head to the side, watching them both look at each other and having a silent conversation between themselves. My eyes switched from Yunho to Yoochun and back again like I could I see the words flying back and forth. I wanted to know what they were thinking but I kept quiet and scratched a black ear while I waited.
Finally Yoochun turned towards me and smile. He was only able to open his mouth before Yunho stepped forward, looking slightly upset.
“No wait. Um… Jaejoong-ah I need to talk to you.”
I smiled then, sitting up a little straighter while watching Yunho take Yoochun’s seat on my bed. I didn’t know what made the air so thick or why Yunho looked worried and continuously took deep breaths but I sat patiently. However, Yunho never spoke; Yoochun did it for him.
“Yunho hyung doesn’t need you anymore.”
Wait…. What? I wasn’t expecting that. Granted, I wasn’t expecting to hear many unpleasant things but this… I didn’t even think I would have ever heard those words. My ears went down as I tilted my head, bangs blocking my vision. I didn’t want to stare at them anyway so I closed my eyes. Maybe I was sleeping still.
“Jaejoong-ah, It’s not like that… I just… Ryeowook-ah left but gave me the will first.”
The will… What will? Soo Man’s will? But I thought…
“My father never would have left something important in a Fee’s hands.”
Yunho’s words hurt me, but what also hurt what the way I felt now when I thought of my old master. He was a tough human but no doubt he trusted me, he had to. Because, after all, I trusted him. I never betrayed Master, and wasn’t leaving the will in my power able to make Yunho like me?
“So… you don’t need me any longer?”
In the beginning, I thought that Yunho needed me for many things: stress relief and a time killer. I even thought that maybe his heart needed me too but now I realize that was completely reversed. I needed Yunho. I needed a stress reliever, I needed a time killer and my heart needed someone to love. I waited for someone to respond to me but having been met with silence, I looked up. My eyes were desperate as I searched their faces but Yunho refused to look at me. Yoochun only frowned before looking away. Yoochun spoke first again.
“I can take Jaejoong-ah off your hands, hyung.”
I looked down again because the time to talk to me was over. Now, I just wanted them to leave so I could cry. I also just wanted to hold onto Yunho until we melted into one person and he could never leave me. Why did it feel like he was dead, like how my older master left me?
“No. Jaejoong… I want him. I want you still.”
Yunho turned towards me and I covered my face quickly with my hands because I started to cry.
“I want to explain to you completely what happened because it’s not right for me to just leave you hanging. I wanted the will my father had left for me but he told me that you were to be my Fee and if I wanted it, then I was to like you like a master would like his Fee. But I hate Fees. I always have since… Since I was little. The only reason I kept you was to try and get the will. However, Ryeowook-ah ended up having it the whole time and he gave it to me… I never needed you Jaejoong-ah. But now… Now I want you.”
My ears started to ring. Did this mean that everything was a lie? Before… when we had sex and he said he cared for me… Did I fall in love with a man that hated me to the whole time? I couldn’t help but curl my knees to my chest and cover my ears. I didn’t want to listen to anything else because my heart was pounding harder than it should have. Why did I love Yunho? Because I thought he loved me back? Because he was my master? No… it was because I am a Fee and I must love the cruel humans that owe me. I don’t think they ever really needed me in the first place; not Master, not Yunho. Maybe Yoochun never even liked me either.
I felt a hand placed on my shoulder and I was sure that Yunho was trying to talk me out of my chaos mind but I wouldn’t have it. Quickly, I got out of my bed and ran out of my room. This was no way for a Fee to act but currently, I didn’t want to be a Fee anymore. No one loved me, truly loved me so how could I continue living?
“Jaejoong-ah! Stop!”
Yunho’s shout caused my ears to go back and I tripped on my feet. My body tumbled down the stairs because it attempted to follow the order my master gave me. I screamed as fell but I got a knock to the head and I couldn’t feel anything else.
-/-/-/-
The day I awoke was the day after I fell. I found myself in my bed with a broken arm and part of my head bandaged. It pounded slightly but I wasn’t in too much pain. I didn’t know how I got back in my room and I almost didn’t want to believe that the discussion that took place yesterday actually was real but it must have happened. I grew sad all over again but that was when I noticed the twelve roses on my bed. Puzzled, I picked the bouquet up and gently sniffed one red rose. They were fresh, at the peak of their bloom and this little gift seemed to make me happy.
I didn’t leave my room the whole day. I didn’t see Yunho either.
-/-/-/-
Two weeks after I feel, my head bandages were no longer needed (the doctor man came in a took them off) but my arm was still broken. I got up from bed a lot more and I looked outside my windows, holding one of the roses I got out of the bundle of twelve. I received roses every day, some were red while others were sometimes white and yellow and even pink. Even though I didn’t know who they were from, I guessed it was Yunho. I wanted to stay angry at him for using me but I couldn’t so I no longer tried. I was starting to trust him, even though he hadn’t visited me since.
The last bundle of flowers I received, this morning actually, had a handful of all different color roses and I thought it was probably the most beautiful one yet. However, what was I supposed to do with them all? At first, I had no where to put them and so I left them on my bed but then I got creative and put them in cute places around my room. I think this bundle will be on my pillow.
I sat on my bed, waiting for my dinner to be brought to me and when the door opened, I was surprised to see Yunho. He had on a butler’s uniform and even wore those cute gloves I wished to try on. He bowed to me and didn’t meet my large eyes. Instead, he gently placed the platter on my bed and looked down more.
“Tonight’s dinner is smoked salmon with some lightly sautéed vegetable greens. There is also some toast with a spread of butter. “
I smiled softly because this was an odd way for Yunho act and I looked at the yummy food placed before me. However, there was something I had to say.
“I don’t like green vegetables though.”
Still I smiled as I looked at Yunho and finally he looked at me. He smiled softly back at me and sat on the bed.
“I know.”
I don’t remember how it happened but we were talking… Like it was a real conversation, not one with lies and unrequited love. Yunho confessed his feelings to me that night and explained once again that he was a wrong person for treating me that way. He admitted that he saw me not as a Fee, something to own and rule over, but as a legitimate person who had deep feelings and should be treated with the utmost care. He told he me worried that I wouldn’t ever like him after what he did to me and before I could even get one word across to him, he didn’t stop apologizing for having said too much and for probably sounding too much like a fool. Quickly, I threw my arms around him, the empty dinner plate we ended up sharing falling to the floor.
“Please stop. Yunho oppa, when I told you I love you the first time we had sex… I meant it. I mean it now and if you swear, swear on…”
“My father’s grave and all the money I own?”
“Yes. If you swear on that and tell me-“
Yunho pushed me down on the bed and he stayed over me, looking me in the eyes. He couldn’t seem to control his speech either as he interrupted me once more.
“I sincerely love you forever and ever? I will. Anything you want to hear Jaejoong-ah.”
He smiled as I put my hands on his cheeks.
“I don’t want to hear that. Well I do but something else. Please.”
Yunho chuckled but nodded towards me.
“Ok, what would you like to hear?”
“May I please have the answer to why you love me?”
I blushed and turned away, bending one ear forward and closed my eyes briefly. For some reason, it was hard to stare into those large eyes of Yunho’s for long.
“I love you because you’re different from what I expected. You’re… you’re Jaejoong-ah: energetic, cute, loving, trustworthy, kind, and perfect.”
I frowned. The compliments were nice but they weren’t what I was expecting.
“Oppa, you’re describing every Fee out there. Why do you love me?”
I pouted my lips and it must have been irritable to him because he ended up kissing me for the briefest of seconds. I ended up blushing again and looking away.
“I love Jaejoong-ah because he is a Fee that has been the only one to capture my heart. I love Jaejoong-ah because he gets so attached to people and I dream about him becoming attached to me. I love Jaejoong-ah because when he’s concentrating on something, his eyes get all spacy and his tail sometimes twitches. I love Jaejoong-ah because when we have sex-“
I quickly put a hand over his mouth to stop the harsh attack to my heart. My face, I was sure, was bright red because it felt like it was as hot as the sun. However, he only pulled the hand away and laughed at me. It was so embarrassing, Yunho treating me like I wasn’t even there. Sure I wanted a reason to believe him but why did he have to bring up sex? It seemed like forever since then and I was so afraid I might suddenly get horny. That would just ruin the whole moment and it would be my fault!
“I love you because when we have sex, you’re tail has this sort of habit of not listening to you.”
I went to quickly cover my own face this time because he certainly was just taunting me but Yunho laced our fingers together quickly, one hand, and kissed me deeply. I groaned and arched my back into his touch. How long has it been? Oh I didn’t care, I didn’t care to do much of anything really. I just wanted Yunho and from his hand that traveled down my body and up my night shirt, I could tell he wanted me as well. But this time, I was convinced it was for the right reason. Utterly, and beyond hopefully convinced.