Okay, I admit, I cried a little bit.
I was reading a fic and there was a wake scene and the whole thing just kinda played out the way I remember it with Jake.
I felt a little foolish afterward, but it got me thinking about grief in general and how there's gonna be a whole lot of it waiting for me in the future.
Everyone's gotta go sometime.
His was so sad because it was entirely too untimely to believe. But is there really ever a "good" time to go? Even when you're old...there are still people who love you and will miss you when you're gone.
Enough of that. I'm not actually angsting.
The other day, I drew a little picture and I realized I hadn't drawn anything for a very, very long time. I even forgot how to draw my own characters. It still looked halfway decent, but someone else entirely from my initial intention.
I miss writing. Hope I can do some of it this winter break if I'm not working the hide off my ass. I know I said I'd quit Le Crack once cold weather settled in, but I honestly don't think I can do that. With my new "saving" plan to muster up enough money for tuition next semester, it involves a VERY strict garnishment every pay period. As it is, with both jobs, I simply don't make enough to pay food costs and bills while setting aside what I need for next semester. My latest cell phone bill has come in and I haven't even paid off the last one (it's on my credit card) nor have I been able to go grocery shopping for some time. A fellow classmate actually gave me a "care package" with FOOD because she felt bad and didn't want me to starve.
I realize next semester probably won't be as bad as I'm anticipating, but I refuse to be "stuck" with a gigantic bill and no way to pay it besides taking out yet another loan. I'm praying to anything that's out there that the State job will want to give me more hours during winter break...and I'll probably try to weasel in a few more Le Crack hours, though I'd like to avoid it if I can...it pays less and is more stressful (and did I mention I hate people?). And it'll be the cranky holiday season. UGH. I am not a people person.
That said, I'm not angsting. I'm not angsting.
Oh fuck it, okay, maybe just a little.
The following interested me because it was about Obama in international media. I guess I haven't been paying attention. I had no idea that the rest of the world cared so much. It just seems like America could give a flying f*** about other countries' elections.
Also, the questions baffled me. Like, it'd ask you if you agreed or disagreed with a statement made in some international article, but the quote would be so weighed down with a billion different heavy ideas, I'd agree with some, disagree with others--so how the hell could I just say decisively whether or not I agreed with the quote as a whole? It's so stupid...
I felt a little foolish afterward, but it got me thinking about grief in general and how there's gonna be a whole lot of it waiting for me in the future.
Everyone's gotta go sometime.
His was so sad because it was entirely too untimely to believe. But is there really ever a "good" time to go? Even when you're old...there are still people who love you and will miss you when you're gone.
Enough of that. I'm not actually angsting.
The other day, I drew a little picture and I realized I hadn't drawn anything for a very, very long time. I even forgot how to draw my own characters. It still looked halfway decent, but someone else entirely from my initial intention.
I miss writing. Hope I can do some of it this winter break if I'm not working the hide off my ass. I know I said I'd quit Le Crack once cold weather settled in, but I honestly don't think I can do that. With my new "saving" plan to muster up enough money for tuition next semester, it involves a VERY strict garnishment every pay period. As it is, with both jobs, I simply don't make enough to pay food costs and bills while setting aside what I need for next semester. My latest cell phone bill has come in and I haven't even paid off the last one (it's on my credit card) nor have I been able to go grocery shopping for some time. A fellow classmate actually gave me a "care package" with FOOD because she felt bad and didn't want me to starve.
I realize next semester probably won't be as bad as I'm anticipating, but I refuse to be "stuck" with a gigantic bill and no way to pay it besides taking out yet another loan. I'm praying to anything that's out there that the State job will want to give me more hours during winter break...and I'll probably try to weasel in a few more Le Crack hours, though I'd like to avoid it if I can...it pays less and is more stressful (and did I mention I hate people?). And it'll be the cranky holiday season. UGH. I am not a people person.
That said, I'm not angsting. I'm not angsting.
Oh fuck it, okay, maybe just a little.
The following interested me because it was about Obama in international media. I guess I haven't been paying attention. I had no idea that the rest of the world cared so much. It just seems like America could give a flying f*** about other countries' elections.
Also, the questions baffled me. Like, it'd ask you if you agreed or disagreed with a statement made in some international article, but the quote would be so weighed down with a billion different heavy ideas, I'd agree with some, disagree with others--so how the hell could I just say decisively whether or not I agreed with the quote as a whole? It's so stupid...