I really kind of hate everything right now. Not people or anything and I'm not particularly cranky or anything, I'm just mad. I'm trying to make sense of things that I'm pretty sure it's pointless to try to make sense of. I know that it's probably pointless to try to understand but I have no other choice. I either make sense of this or go on ( Read more... )

I was told that it's wrong to hate God. That you can't be mad at God for this. But who am I supposed to be mad at? I have to focus this anger somewhere and there is nowhere to focus it. I hate everything, everyone. I hate life. I hate the way things are. I hate cancer and I hate death and the fear of death. I hate the idea of everything except for ( Read more... )