Feeling low!!
Well once again I find myself coming here to post when I want to talk about things that I really can’t talk about on my site and for once I really don’t know why but since getting back from holiday I feel so lonely. I think this may have something to do with not seeing a certain person for nearly two weeks and not getting the right sorts of signals off her now that I am back.
So yes I am finding it hard to try and get back to normality but I have to keep reminding myself that I have no god given right to be around her house every day she is allowed to have other friends as well, so maybe my absence can be used as a way to get things back to how they were with me only going around there once a week and not as it has turned out in recent weeks being around there nearly every day for dinner.
I got back from Spain and you know what I sat in front of the computer with no one to talk to, I once thought that I had a network of friends all over the world but in recent months this network of friends has dried up and all but vanished, like a garden that has been neglected for way to long there is not much to salvage, in fact one of my biggest problems is my sentimentality I have been online for close to six years now and still have the names of the people I spoke to in those early days on the computer on various messengers and I have started to clean ship. I have said this before but this time I really will have to follow though with my actions.
They say you can judge a persons worth by the friends that they have, well at this moment in time I don’t feel worth much.
So yes I am finding it hard to try and get back to normality but I have to keep reminding myself that I have no god given right to be around her house every day she is allowed to have other friends as well, so maybe my absence can be used as a way to get things back to how they were with me only going around there once a week and not as it has turned out in recent weeks being around there nearly every day for dinner.
I got back from Spain and you know what I sat in front of the computer with no one to talk to, I once thought that I had a network of friends all over the world but in recent months this network of friends has dried up and all but vanished, like a garden that has been neglected for way to long there is not much to salvage, in fact one of my biggest problems is my sentimentality I have been online for close to six years now and still have the names of the people I spoke to in those early days on the computer on various messengers and I have started to clean ship. I have said this before but this time I really will have to follow though with my actions.
They say you can judge a persons worth by the friends that they have, well at this moment in time I don’t feel worth much.