Thanks for bearing with me/All of the stress
So between all of the stress in my life recently I hit my first art block that I couldn't punch through with determined arting.
For context here, I don't believe in waiting for a muse. I don't believe in some fantastical notion that the moment needs to be perfect to art. To be fair when I am working on personal projects I tend to only work on what really strikes me, but when it comes to clients, its a JOB. It is how I got better. It's how I got through art school. Pushing through. Just drawing and drawing and drawing until it finally comes out right. And the exhaustion of too many cons, of being sick because of those cons, of being exhausted dealing with personal crap, it hit me hard last month. And for about a week nothing was right. Not a single thing. I kept slamming my head against the wall, and my pencil across the page, but it was all crap. The poses were contrived, the colors weren't coherent. It was bad. For a little more than a WEEK. I didn't know what to do.
On the plus side with the start of the new month I am back to being able to do art. The figures are flowing, the sketches are working, the paints are making sense. But you guys, I mean, I don't know if you can realize how freaked out that made me. To realize that no matter how much I pushed I couldn't do a single piece of halfway decent art? That was terrifying. So as a result I am never going to do that many cons in a row again. I can't. 5 cons within 3 months, where I was doing approximately 1 con every other week (only one of which was quasi-local) broke me. I was so exhausted that I couldn't do decent art for you guys. I couldn't do much of anything besides recover for approximately 2 weeks. And I felt like such a slacker. I covered for it by doing business stuff. I did finances, I organized supplies. I took inventory. I did all the crap about business that I hate. But I felt guilty every time I stared at my queue because I never stopped trying during those two weeks but couldn't give any of that crap to a client. I couldn't do it.
So bear with me now. The art is really coming strong now, and while I have a lot of other stress and nonsense going on in my life I've finally built back up the reserves needed to be able to create again. So now in the face of taxes, and driving tickets, and sick family friends, and other such nonsense, I can finally stand up and art. And it is Good. So thanks for bearing with me while I just kind of passed out at the end of last month. Expect lots of art in the coming months, many of which should be large and super fun pieces that I have been super stoked about. Lots of fun things in queue, Sabertooth Cat Hybrid, Red River Hog, African Wild Dog, Hyena, Water Dragon, Norse Dragon, Dalek (hehehe) and many more. So sit back, enjoy and thank you all (ESPECIALLY my commissioners, who had to wait an extra week) for your patience. I appreciate it greatly.
For context here, I don't believe in waiting for a muse. I don't believe in some fantastical notion that the moment needs to be perfect to art. To be fair when I am working on personal projects I tend to only work on what really strikes me, but when it comes to clients, its a JOB. It is how I got better. It's how I got through art school. Pushing through. Just drawing and drawing and drawing until it finally comes out right. And the exhaustion of too many cons, of being sick because of those cons, of being exhausted dealing with personal crap, it hit me hard last month. And for about a week nothing was right. Not a single thing. I kept slamming my head against the wall, and my pencil across the page, but it was all crap. The poses were contrived, the colors weren't coherent. It was bad. For a little more than a WEEK. I didn't know what to do.
On the plus side with the start of the new month I am back to being able to do art. The figures are flowing, the sketches are working, the paints are making sense. But you guys, I mean, I don't know if you can realize how freaked out that made me. To realize that no matter how much I pushed I couldn't do a single piece of halfway decent art? That was terrifying. So as a result I am never going to do that many cons in a row again. I can't. 5 cons within 3 months, where I was doing approximately 1 con every other week (only one of which was quasi-local) broke me. I was so exhausted that I couldn't do decent art for you guys. I couldn't do much of anything besides recover for approximately 2 weeks. And I felt like such a slacker. I covered for it by doing business stuff. I did finances, I organized supplies. I took inventory. I did all the crap about business that I hate. But I felt guilty every time I stared at my queue because I never stopped trying during those two weeks but couldn't give any of that crap to a client. I couldn't do it.
So bear with me now. The art is really coming strong now, and while I have a lot of other stress and nonsense going on in my life I've finally built back up the reserves needed to be able to create again. So now in the face of taxes, and driving tickets, and sick family friends, and other such nonsense, I can finally stand up and art. And it is Good. So thanks for bearing with me while I just kind of passed out at the end of last month. Expect lots of art in the coming months, many of which should be large and super fun pieces that I have been super stoked about. Lots of fun things in queue, Sabertooth Cat Hybrid, Red River Hog, African Wild Dog, Hyena, Water Dragon, Norse Dragon, Dalek (hehehe) and many more. So sit back, enjoy and thank you all (ESPECIALLY my commissioners, who had to wait an extra week) for your patience. I appreciate it greatly.