BIG DECISION - Possible Library Job
I wish I could get my shit together.
I'd made the decision to go back to uni and do my Masters in Fine Art. I haven't quite completed my application yet - it needs a decent proposal that I can send to my prospective supervisor for review. So there's work to be done.
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There's a job of Technology Officer at Lake Macquarie Council. John ( Read more... )
Then, as other priorities permit, a job search could continue, including applications for jobs, including the one you're referring to.
And then, if a job that closely fits your skill set becomes available, and depending on circumstances at that time, you could apply for it.
So... there it is! Frankly, I really feel you should give this job a pass, perhaps going through the job application process this time at your own pace, but giving uni absolute first priority.
I strongly feel (at least in my case) that it's necessary to encounter those "FREEZING" situations, simply to learn how body feels before, during, and after those times: and to help mind accommodate physiological necessity, and not solely "subordinate our owners' bodies to Will" or something. Doing this means being able to just stop and be still for awhile. Just breathing, perhaps? Repeating the mechanical motions of applying for that job might be helpful, but easily could simply replay the episode, which would be counterproductive.
Sounds to me like the pace of that job, day in and day out, could literally leave no energy--and no desire--to ever do anything else. Your webcomics would be missed, believe me.
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Personally I think you should put the uni application process as first priority, very firmly, and begin imagining the next four years in that context.
That's what I though I was doing, but it's been so hard to focus in the last week. Nothing much has gone the way I wanted, and my energy just seems to vanish.
So... there it is! Frankly, I really feel you should give this job a pass, perhaps going through the job application process this time at your own pace, but giving uni absolute first priority.
I haven't had anything at my own pace for the last 4-5 days. I feel very flustered.
Sounds to me like the pace of that job, day in and day out, could literally leave no energy--and no desire--to ever do anything else. Your webcomics would be missed, believe me.
My huge fear is that apart from the money, I won't have time for anything like that.
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Your decision, it is; entirely and utterly yours, and yours alone. But I feel quite comfortable in asserting that in four years you'll have something that will serve you better thenceforth than four years pay ever possibly could: a higher social status. And higher social status for women (of whatever age) means: more safety, security, help from others as aging progresses. And a more satisfying place in the world than "sysadmin" or something?
The subtext is that the job would probably go to an equally qualified person who was also either male or twenty years younger than you. (Which for some might be incentive to apply for it, actually. You, on the other hand, are in the process of applying for uni, yes? Invoking anti-discrimination rules against a potential employer is one way of "getting your foot in the door"--quite commonly, according to some accounts. Do you want the job that badly?)
You need to bring that "exhaustion" to the attention of your physician, explicitly. You need to program your life as well as you can to enjoy life itself as much as possible, "poverty"-stricken or no. You don't need that job.
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if I had decided to go the postgraduate route, I'd be seeking jobs that would allow me to do full-time course work, and these close-in to the University. Because, having decided, I would be busily rearranging my life to accommodate what I had decided to do.
You are absolutely correct. I just need the courage of my conviction to realise that.
The subtext is that the job would probably go to an equally qualified person who was also either male or twenty years younger than you.
Well that only leaves men 30 and under (giggle). It's most likely to happen that way, yes.
You need to bring that "exhaustion" to the attention of your physician, explicitly. You need to program your life as well as you can to enjoy life itself as much as possible, "poverty"-stricken or no. You don't need that job.
I agree, though this hasn't been the case for a while. I started taking a multi-vitamin supplement starting yesterday. We'll see if that makes a difference.
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