sadness within
ok here is the scoop and trust me it is painfull.
well ive been here about 40 days, and things are different. new people, who by the way are asswholes. and the net place is being fried like crazy. Ive been out on partols along with fixing things. and so my days are long and very tiring. now what do you think i get when i talk to people?
ok im not the best husband nor the niciest man. i know that. and im trying to correct the mistakes that i have done. but then we have my wife. who i love very much.
today she said she is 'falling for another man'. um.. thinks a bit. i think thats cheating. ok. but here is the whole story. his wife left him and now he does coke. she met him at her friends kelly and he spent the night. well he's 'nice to her' and she starts falling for him? Come on.. now..me being where i am.. do you think that is news that i want to hear. Um.. no. i fact im quite mad about the whole thing.
But do i have the right to be mad? lets vote. ill let the readers vote. Or do i have to sit a watch all of this? What do i do? for i am lost. i love my wife. very much soo.. i love her dearly. I was ok with her helping a man over come his coke thingy... but this.... i dont know what to say. im lost with out her. i know i am. but do i deserive this? I think i do. im not sure. what are you doing to me God?
WHY ARE YOU SOO MAD AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE? IS IT THAT I TURNED MY BACK TO YOU. OR IS IT THAT I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY IT IS. YOU TOOK SOO MANY PEOPLE FROM ME.. HARRV, JOHN...RUBEN.. ALL THOSE PEOPLE DIDNT NEED TO DIE. YES THE FIRST TWO WHERE OLD..BUT NOT MY FRIEND. NOT TO METION BRAD. WHY.. THEN..
THERE ARE ALOT OF THINGS ON MY MIND.. AND NOW YOUR TEMPETING MY WIFE WITH ANOTHER MAN. AHHHHHHHHHH.. THIS IS WHY I FUCKING HATE YOU.. SO FUCKING MUCH... SOOOO MUCH... ITS WEIRD.. EVERYONE LOVES YOU.. BUT YOU HATE ME.. DAMN IT ANSWER ME.. PLEASE...*falls to the ground and pounds*....
"i dont what to lose her.. please.. i love her.. more then anything in the world. i would be nothing without her. let me keep my umi, my rachy, my lilmoon.. please..."
well ive been here about 40 days, and things are different. new people, who by the way are asswholes. and the net place is being fried like crazy. Ive been out on partols along with fixing things. and so my days are long and very tiring. now what do you think i get when i talk to people?
ok im not the best husband nor the niciest man. i know that. and im trying to correct the mistakes that i have done. but then we have my wife. who i love very much.
today she said she is 'falling for another man'. um.. thinks a bit. i think thats cheating. ok. but here is the whole story. his wife left him and now he does coke. she met him at her friends kelly and he spent the night. well he's 'nice to her' and she starts falling for him? Come on.. now..me being where i am.. do you think that is news that i want to hear. Um.. no. i fact im quite mad about the whole thing.
But do i have the right to be mad? lets vote. ill let the readers vote. Or do i have to sit a watch all of this? What do i do? for i am lost. i love my wife. very much soo.. i love her dearly. I was ok with her helping a man over come his coke thingy... but this.... i dont know what to say. im lost with out her. i know i am. but do i deserive this? I think i do. im not sure. what are you doing to me God?
WHY ARE YOU SOO MAD AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE? IS IT THAT I TURNED MY BACK TO YOU. OR IS IT THAT I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY IT IS. YOU TOOK SOO MANY PEOPLE FROM ME.. HARRV, JOHN...RUBEN.. ALL THOSE PEOPLE DIDNT NEED TO DIE. YES THE FIRST TWO WHERE OLD..BUT NOT MY FRIEND. NOT TO METION BRAD. WHY.. THEN..
THERE ARE ALOT OF THINGS ON MY MIND.. AND NOW YOUR TEMPETING MY WIFE WITH ANOTHER MAN. AHHHHHHHHHH.. THIS IS WHY I FUCKING HATE YOU.. SO FUCKING MUCH... SOOOO MUCH... ITS WEIRD.. EVERYONE LOVES YOU.. BUT YOU HATE ME.. DAMN IT ANSWER ME.. PLEASE...*falls to the ground and pounds*....
"i dont what to lose her.. please.. i love her.. more then anything in the world. i would be nothing without her. let me keep my umi, my rachy, my lilmoon.. please..."