I have grown roots in the country with my Beelzie. In the forest. In the fields. In the backyard ( Read more... )

It's a hot 🔥 summer day. We bought a small kiddy pool. (it's more than enough for lil 'ol me 😁
The neighbor pumped it up. I'm drinking beer in the shadow and Beelzie is chewing on grass :)
Good times ;)


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This year it is 10 years since I started writing here ( Read more... )

*sigh*

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I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
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and fall and fall and fall and ... fall apart!?

Oh well because ...

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..... I see all too clearly now
why you should be discarded
and though I could pray for you
I probably shan`t
having had my cup filled up
with your lies
and your makeup

You were nothing
thinking you`re something ...

And nonetheless I still write this gothic lovesong
a sign to myself
and the ( Read more... )

dear diary ( Read more... )

What she said

Time and time again I get disappointed.
By myself and others. By myself mainly ... because I get to thinking that others will not disappoint me.
By myself mainly because I get comfortable and start "sleepwalking".
By myself mainly because I give it all.

I am so "isolated" in "my world" I think everyone should see things MY way.

Nobody ( Read more... )

And who’s to say I still have it?
Maybe I lost it. Maybe I never really had it.
I am completely empty the last couple of days.
So drained by my needy family that all I want to do is go home and be quiet.
Avoid all human contact, in fear of being forced to explain simple things a couple of hundred thousand times.

I unplug the phone, turn off my ( Read more... )

Inconsistency can drive me insane.

Then again, routine has never been my friend either. Therefore, I do not keep one for too long.
I seem not to keep habits and such notions for long either.
I acquire passions. Yes. I become obsessed with one "thing", whatever that may be, and suckle on it like a hungry baby fox on its mother's tit ( Read more... )

And then there are those times you cannot figure out what is blocking you.

You just cannot put your finger on it. Is it too much information? Is it not enough information? Is it the sleepless nights, or perhaps too much sleep, that drain all your energy and hide it to some secret place far far away from you?? Is too much coffee, or not coffee at ( Read more... )