Today we had to say goodbye to my mother's cat.
Sadly she had to leave us too soon. Only 9 years old cause she suffered kidney failure.
She went to her forever sleep early this evening.
Our hearts are broken.
RIP
Little
Kramis/Asshole/Satan/Evil/Cat/Surtant/Miffo/Fuff 💔🖤
2011 - 2020


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THESE ADORABLE CARTOONS ARE DARK AS FUCK


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11:00 pm
I dreamt I was packing a suitcase in extreme hurry and distress 'cause my father and I were supposed to catch a plane that was leaving very shortly. He kept on telling me: "Pack light, you don't need to take all that to were we're going. Come we are late"
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I came across this text online the other day :

"I don't see any point at all in living. It's not like I'm totally miserable- I'm not happy or sad, but I feel like there's no point at all in living my life and I have no attachment to it. I'm not getting anything out of it, and I can't imagine anything that I could live for or achieve that there ( Read more... )

Fifth song tested on the master’s studios.
He said: “a good sad song”
:)
That made me happy. To me, that translates as: I approve my child

I feel good about this.
We talked about past present future and backwards ... and I managed not to cry.
Well, only THIS is progress.
So this time it is for real. No more ifs and buts and no more lazing about. This demo ( Read more... )

Yesterday it was a rather good day. I finished a song I started last year with the ex. I completed the melodic line for the vocals and the lyrics. It is now ready to record the vocals and it's done :) 
It kept me going for the whole day and whole night. I felt fucking good!!!!!
Today I am totally fucked up again. My stomach is tied to a knot. There ( Read more... )

I could not stand to go to work today ...
I need to stay home.
I have been feeling like shit lately.
Life keeps on challenging me, methodically and systematically.
I have to find a way to fight back.
After all these years you'd think I'd know ...

I will now work on the 5th song of my demo. I think it only needs vocals ...
I have my sister's old small ( Read more... )