This year, the Tokyo government has a strange policy. In light of the mass destruction up north, and the hundreds of thousands of people who - one month later - still do not have a home, "hanami" has been canceled ( Read more... )

I've always been a person to try and trap a memory, to dwell in later. But after a week of feeling absolutely horrible, of having literally hit the most bottom that I've ever been at in my life -- I feel positive, somehow.

I feel -- I can't believe this -- a little bit of hope.

In the midst of being so frustrated with myself, and with him, and even ( Read more... )

"I don't want to hear the thing I want to hear the most."

How's that for being a girl? I think that if a boy were to hear it, he'd think I was insane. I think most people wouldn't immediately assume that such a statement made a lot of sense. After all, who doesn't want what they want?

Only the people who want it too much.

I've been having these ( Read more... )

Tonight, I had a mini-revolution inside of my heart.

I thought to myself, that everything was just crazy and how was I supposed to believe in this guy?

And then I realized I was wrong about that all along. It's not even about that. That was the point I kept trying to ignore.

It started off like I'd never expect, at the end of two hours of smiles. I ( Read more... )

I had just gotten off of my bicycle in the biting cold, and finally come to the right perspective. I thought to myself, "Casey, listen; think. What has God done for you? "You just had dinner with a Miho, Kotone, and Kim -- names you associated, for the first time, with a foreigner living in Tokyo. And Hideki, whom was your first association with ( Read more... )

Isn't it weird how there are just some periods of times, some passages of life, that take ages, and others that just crumble between the pads of pinching fingers? But I have this to say; I've figured out some of it-- it makes a big difference waking up at 8:30 vs. 10:30 in the morning, because that is two more hours of sunshine that help makes the ( Read more... )

Drinking.

Came home at 12:30 and thought everyone was asleep; thought wrong. Elizabeth was up with the lights off I suppose. I got a mail from Laura so I stepped outside to answer it and didn't lock the door behind me. I came back and Elizabeth had locked me out. The light was on in her room next to the door so I locked on it. She flipped out. "YOU' ( Read more... )

I'm trying... to think of what needs to be said. So I'll do my best to describe how wonderful summer is, in relieving my face of a weariness I didn't know I had. I could stretch out when talking to Yael today, because I was so comfortable it didn't bother me at all. Just relaxing. I like being able to do that for a change. I like being able to ( Read more... )