another facebook status
July 13th: Alana is insanely happy and joyous and extremely in love with someone besides the inventor of ear plugs. Well to the last part first, i mentioned before that my mom and dad bought me ear plugs to see if it helped me sleep since my new dog is yappy and they are wonderful! And now to the rest and probably more interesting part. I was talking with Sean on Sunday and the topic of our situation came up. and he said he had been thing so i'm sitting there thinking god what now? and he proceeded to say "haha well you know I have just been thinking about you and everything and of course her and the more and more I thought about it I came to realize my feelings first off whenever I kissed you I felt complete when I kissed her it was just enjoyable and whenever I fool around with you it was not just physically fun but emotionally great as well her not so much and now I am picturing my life with you and living with you for the rest of it and it sounds amazing as for her I dont think I would ever be able to trust her not to cheat as well as anything else whenever I am with you or talking to you I am just happy and nothing else matters other than you are happy" yes and that is a direct quote god it made me so happy to hear and i was all giggley and squealing girlishly luckily he couldn't hear or see me lol then i asked him what exactly that made us, and he said that although he still has the desire to fool around just as much as the next guy, he is very willing to be exclusive with me. I melted i wanted to cry and hold him and kiss him he made me so happy. If only we were closer i miss him so much and i really need that physical reassurance only he can give me. I really hope i'm able to go up and visit him this sunday if not i have to wait til the 26th and i'd hate doing that. I want and need to spend as much time with him as possible since i leave the 10th for school *sigh* I'm so happy now with my relationship and i can't wait to spend as much time together with him as humanly possible. Well that's all for now
-Lani
-Lani