facebook status: Alana is devastated
This will be brief because i'm still in shock and hurting.
last night sean wasn't returning my texts from like 2 til 9 then when we did talk he was short and said he didn't want to talk tonight and when he did say good night he didn't say he loved me so i had a feeling that he was having issues again... i hate being right.
I called when i woke up and oddly woke him as well i took a shower waited a little bit and he came over i kissed him hello and he hugged me and said "we need to talk" to which i replied "do i need to punch you in the face?" and we went into the other room and he laid his cards out on the table saying he doesn't love me like he used to that i always seem to be moody or sad that he doesnt' think we have enough in common and i dont' want to do the same things he does that i'm controlling sometimes and several other little things. And so i cried for three hours or so and he held me and tried to leave two or three times but stopped when i couldn't keep from sobbing so hard i thought i was either going to pass out of throw up. he finally did leave and he gave me a hug and one last kiss and he left. and now i'm going to go cry some more its like something i held so dear to me just suddenly died. i think i'm going to be ok but right now its not good... i'll write more when i can -Alana
last night sean wasn't returning my texts from like 2 til 9 then when we did talk he was short and said he didn't want to talk tonight and when he did say good night he didn't say he loved me so i had a feeling that he was having issues again... i hate being right.
I called when i woke up and oddly woke him as well i took a shower waited a little bit and he came over i kissed him hello and he hugged me and said "we need to talk" to which i replied "do i need to punch you in the face?" and we went into the other room and he laid his cards out on the table saying he doesn't love me like he used to that i always seem to be moody or sad that he doesnt' think we have enough in common and i dont' want to do the same things he does that i'm controlling sometimes and several other little things. And so i cried for three hours or so and he held me and tried to leave two or three times but stopped when i couldn't keep from sobbing so hard i thought i was either going to pass out of throw up. he finally did leave and he gave me a hug and one last kiss and he left. and now i'm going to go cry some more its like something i held so dear to me just suddenly died. i think i'm going to be ok but right now its not good... i'll write more when i can -Alana