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i have nowhere to vent except in this stupid online journal thing, so here goes.
i am extremely disappointed. in friends. in life. in him.
everyone seems to be such a let down. some things just don't change.
take for instance, today.
had a (slightly) interesting night last night with HIM, and today, practically kicks me out of bed and says alright, time to take you home. even though his flight leaves at 5, and it's only 1 ish.
"i don't want to spend any more time with you". why do i even fucking bother?
already up to these stupid charades? we aren't even together and somehow he thinks he pull this shit.
listen, he has "better plans" to go have coffee with someone i've never met.
instead of mentioning this yesterday at all, he didn't, which led me to believe that as of waking up today, we could go do something like get breakfast or coffee or SOMETHING.
"if i don't say anything about making plans don't assume my time is yours".
this is getting fucking unbelieveable.
i honestly have no idea why i give two shits about someone who would talk to me and treat me this way.
don't i deserve the best?
if that's the case, why do i get the worst? why do i feel disposeable? is it perhaps because you treat me like this on a constant basis?
until you have the nerve to apologize, don't expect to be hearing back from me.
i am extremely disappointed. in friends. in life. in him.
everyone seems to be such a let down. some things just don't change.
take for instance, today.
had a (slightly) interesting night last night with HIM, and today, practically kicks me out of bed and says alright, time to take you home. even though his flight leaves at 5, and it's only 1 ish.
"i don't want to spend any more time with you". why do i even fucking bother?
already up to these stupid charades? we aren't even together and somehow he thinks he pull this shit.
listen, he has "better plans" to go have coffee with someone i've never met.
instead of mentioning this yesterday at all, he didn't, which led me to believe that as of waking up today, we could go do something like get breakfast or coffee or SOMETHING.
"if i don't say anything about making plans don't assume my time is yours".
this is getting fucking unbelieveable.
i honestly have no idea why i give two shits about someone who would talk to me and treat me this way.
don't i deserve the best?
if that's the case, why do i get the worst? why do i feel disposeable? is it perhaps because you treat me like this on a constant basis?
until you have the nerve to apologize, don't expect to be hearing back from me.