My life is so dramaless
Thats not entirely true, its not completely boring, its just I'm watching my one friend date, and she's so caught up in the feelings of the situation. I love being married. I love being in a stable relationship. Jim and I are so the old boring married couple.
I miss the excitement of dating (or better put in my case of trying to date). The going crazy everytime this guy that you just would die to go out with comes near you, or better yet speaks to you. I feel like I put myself much more out there when I was looking for someone, because even if I didn't want to date that person, I should make friends because they might have a friend I'd like to date.
The whole dance of deciding how much touching is ok, and what point is too much.
Don't get me wrong, marriage (or long term commitment) has advantages too. There is a comfort and a partnership that you only get from time with a person. A dance of a different sort.
But its sort of sad too that I'll never have that again. I don't really want it either, the whole dating mess, just the excitement and nervous anticipation, thats what I want.
I'm really happy with my life right now. It seems like I'm at a point where what I want in life is more material things but all the nonmaterial things I want I have. I have a home and a husband, we're both healthy and we have enough money to pay our bills every month. Sure someday I'll want a bigger house, but for now, it seems like we've got a perfect life.
Only it feels like I should have a bigger goal then that.
I don't even know what I'm trying to say is, besides I want butterflies over a guy, but I don't want to change my life.
I miss the excitement of dating (or better put in my case of trying to date). The going crazy everytime this guy that you just would die to go out with comes near you, or better yet speaks to you. I feel like I put myself much more out there when I was looking for someone, because even if I didn't want to date that person, I should make friends because they might have a friend I'd like to date.
The whole dance of deciding how much touching is ok, and what point is too much.
Don't get me wrong, marriage (or long term commitment) has advantages too. There is a comfort and a partnership that you only get from time with a person. A dance of a different sort.
But its sort of sad too that I'll never have that again. I don't really want it either, the whole dating mess, just the excitement and nervous anticipation, thats what I want.
I'm really happy with my life right now. It seems like I'm at a point where what I want in life is more material things but all the nonmaterial things I want I have. I have a home and a husband, we're both healthy and we have enough money to pay our bills every month. Sure someday I'll want a bigger house, but for now, it seems like we've got a perfect life.
Only it feels like I should have a bigger goal then that.
I don't even know what I'm trying to say is, besides I want butterflies over a guy, but I don't want to change my life.