Wembley: What's wrong with me, I feel so strange. So sad. So bored. ... I feel weird! It's like being lonely, but you don't want to talk to anybody, and like being hungry except you don't wanna eat. And it's like being sleepy in your head but your feet feel like playing ( Read more... )

I need a... I don't know what the term would be. I am really lousy at sticking to personal goals and being productive and learning and achieving... but I am damn good at showing people up. In elementary school, I always chose really crazy hard words for vocabulary, just because most of my peers didn't or couldn't understand defenestrate or aquatic ( Read more... )

I feel like crying. I'm not exactly sure why, but i'm pretty sure it has something to do with my father. i was the self-proclaimed "World's biggest daddy's girl". Lately, something has seemed to have changed. We're not as close. i don't know if it's because i'm depressed and indifferent and distant, or because he's older and seems more... i don't ( Read more... )

So, i just went back and read my last post from 2006, and then one on about New Years ( Read more... )

The conclusion I've come to is that i'm a specific attention whore. Don't get me wrong, attention whore all the way, but I don't have to be THE center of attention, just SOMEONE's center of attention. finaliteration was especially great at making me feel like i was his whole world, especially in a group of people (mostly other attention whores) all trying to ( Read more... )

-You're a very likable person, why don't you like yourself ( Read more... )

Ok, I know this will throw everyone for a bit of a loop, but seriously. I love my mom. She drives me crazy a lot of the time, being a nag and stuff, but when I need her, she's there. i called her the other night because i had a question about how much interest i could claim for my student loans. The only reason I can see not getting all my money ( Read more... )

There are razorblades in my throat. and they are systematically slicing the raw, red tissue of my throat, and edging up to the roof of my mouth, the little slits where my nostrils connect in the soft palate at the back. just when i get my throat calm, soothed to some minute degree, i sneeze violently. the force of air and snot escaping my body ( Read more... )

today is valentines day. no one mentions the saint part anymore. he must not have been cool like St. Patrick. in theory, these "holidays" are religion based. they're a day of recognizing martyrs. So why are they celebrated in public schools? and why doesn't anyone remember the pagan origins of this kind of thing? i'll take purification and ( Read more... )

I should have been studying all afternoon, doing homework and reading and getting caught up so i have less to do this weekend when ben is here. Should being the operative word. It's been so VERY nice out today, and i had to be cooped up all day at work... so i came home and talked to Liz for a while about stuff. I feel kind of bad... because we ( Read more... )