Another new year
So, i just went back and read my last post from 2006, and then one on about New Years...
New Years are never kind to me, and I don't see this one being at all different. Which says a lot, because i do kind of believe that how you spend your new year is fairly indicative of how that year will go.
Last new year's eve, for instance, I worked, I hung out with a bunch of wonderful people who i haven't seen since, drank quite a bit, kissed a baby on the cheek at midnight, kissed a guy who wasn't interested in the slightest, and stayed up till about 5 am talking, drinking, and smoking with koomkie. New year's day i drove home, alone, greeted my dog, packed a little and saw some old friends.
2007: i drank quite a bit, smoked a little, kissed a guy who wasn't interested in the slightest, traveled only as far as NYC, was always greeted by my dog when i get home, and I made a bunch of friends who i pretty much don't see anymore.
*shrug* Time moves differently when you grow up. It just doesn't seem like that life was a year ago. I still hate Rhode Island. I still hate being single. I still can't save money. I still love all the people i loved last year. It still hurts that i'm not with them more often... or ever.
I still don't have insurance... I still probably need happy pills... I still shrug because i'm lazy and i can't think of anything to say, or a real way to make changes in my life. Everything is far away (meaning goals... it's like running a marathon on a really hot day, and you're still so far away, you can't see the finish line for all the wavy heat zones.)
The problem with resolutions is that you have to have resolve to resolve to do something. And i've never put my highest dice roll into constitution....
New Years are never kind to me, and I don't see this one being at all different. Which says a lot, because i do kind of believe that how you spend your new year is fairly indicative of how that year will go.
Last new year's eve, for instance, I worked, I hung out with a bunch of wonderful people who i haven't seen since, drank quite a bit, kissed a baby on the cheek at midnight, kissed a guy who wasn't interested in the slightest, and stayed up till about 5 am talking, drinking, and smoking with koomkie. New year's day i drove home, alone, greeted my dog, packed a little and saw some old friends.
2007: i drank quite a bit, smoked a little, kissed a guy who wasn't interested in the slightest, traveled only as far as NYC, was always greeted by my dog when i get home, and I made a bunch of friends who i pretty much don't see anymore.
*shrug* Time moves differently when you grow up. It just doesn't seem like that life was a year ago. I still hate Rhode Island. I still hate being single. I still can't save money. I still love all the people i loved last year. It still hurts that i'm not with them more often... or ever.
I still don't have insurance... I still probably need happy pills... I still shrug because i'm lazy and i can't think of anything to say, or a real way to make changes in my life. Everything is far away (meaning goals... it's like running a marathon on a really hot day, and you're still so far away, you can't see the finish line for all the wavy heat zones.)
The problem with resolutions is that you have to have resolve to resolve to do something. And i've never put my highest dice roll into constitution....