So that happened
I have not been feeling physically well for a while now. I was sick for most of February and had a sensitive stomach for this half of March. I also have not seen the Blood Moon since January. So time for a pee test. Having already gone through this once one would think that I could take this with no problem. Nope! Nervous and scared for the out come I did not look at the end results until this morning. Well, here we go again. Tim does not seem happy but I am sure that at least part of that is having to had to deal with the down swing of the last week of sleepless nights. The other half is that small children are a lot of work, New born especially. Tim for all his hard work is a lazy butt at heart. He likes kids when they can play and run and laugh and ruff house. Mair is just getting to that point. I asked for this and I know that. I wish I could find my self confidence in the situation. Tim pointed out to me that years ago all I wanted was to be content. Well I am,no matter what life throws at me I am content with my partner and with my family. I am not quite content with my self but we kwen that was going to be an on going project for the rest of my life. He asked my why I am not content and I had to say that I was bur I wanted to strive now to be happy, with my life and my self. I asked him if that was wrong and started bawling.
Another thing is that I have been out of work for two years. Money is tight. If I could work with both little ones at home things might not be so bad. My attempts at a home business have not been functional let alone successful. Etsy may be my only option for a while.