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I haven't updated in a while. Not lyrics and quotes, updates on what's going on. I guess I really haven't wanted to just sit down and say. But honestly nothing really big has happened. My life in general had been quite uneventful for a while. Things have been going smooth for the most part, I suppose. Last month Greg and I had our 6th month anniversary. It was nice. I was really excited about it too. For the first time I made it to 6th months in a relationship happily. Our 7 month is comming up this sunday which is still exciting. There have been small disagreements I guess but not terrible. Lately I've been feeling kind of down, mostly my own fault. Things just seem a little different now. I'm used to getting little poems and pictures in my e-mail from Greg, telling me how much he loves me and just cute things. I guess I got spoiled. That doesn't happen anymore really, which I guess is fine. Lately I have just been feeling like we're kind of drifting apart a little more. I don't know wether that's bad or not. It upsets me, but maybe it's better. I like the all of the corny lovey dovey things. I like romantic things. I like cute things. I guess I'm just slightly worried he might slowly slip away, which scares me more than I thought anything could. I know it sounds crazy. I'm young. Why should I care so much? Right? I can't really help it though. I love him more than I thought I could love someone. To think this time last year all I wanted was just numerous flings and flirting with tons of cute guys. And now, a year later I can think of nothing but how I want to spend a very long time with this one person, and to thing I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with this one person. And the fact that it doesn't scare me I think is increadible. I'm still not quite sure what exactly he has to say on the subject. It'd be nice if he felt the same way. But maybe he needs time. I'm still so scared of scaring him off,or chasing him away. I just think it's amusing how childish I still can be.
Lately I've had a couple disagreenents with various friends. I just can't stay quiet anymore. I've found myself talking back to people and showing my own oponion. The only problem with that is that it causes problems. I miss being neutral. I miss things being simple.
My sister came down for my graduation so I have been trying so spend time with her since I don't see her very often. I missed the all night senior party to try and spend some time with her. It was nice, we sat and talked for a good long time.
Today is Gregs 20th Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETY! I ended up giving him the game trillogy Onimusha 1,2, and 3. I think he liked it. I was a bit hesitant to buy it because I didn't want him to dissapear for a long period of time. I figured he'd like it though. Eric got him a gimp mask. All I have to say is OH MY GOD...
Wow. I didn't expect this to be so long. (This is a long entry for me. Shaddap!)
Lately I've had a couple disagreenents with various friends. I just can't stay quiet anymore. I've found myself talking back to people and showing my own oponion. The only problem with that is that it causes problems. I miss being neutral. I miss things being simple.
My sister came down for my graduation so I have been trying so spend time with her since I don't see her very often. I missed the all night senior party to try and spend some time with her. It was nice, we sat and talked for a good long time.
Today is Gregs 20th Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETY! I ended up giving him the game trillogy Onimusha 1,2, and 3. I think he liked it. I was a bit hesitant to buy it because I didn't want him to dissapear for a long period of time. I figured he'd like it though. Eric got him a gimp mask. All I have to say is OH MY GOD...
Wow. I didn't expect this to be so long. (This is a long entry for me. Shaddap!)