So I think I'll be deleting my Myspace soon. It's a bit of a tragedy really. I used Myspace to blog the day-to-days starting just after I began HRT. Reading myself through the ups and downs, then downs, then plummets, then ups of transition has been pretty theraputic. Interestingly, it was fun to read rock bottom then a sudden upswing happen ( Read more... )

wow. its just amazing. living with GID is hard. it can be seriously unbareable at times. all TS handle transitioning differently. some decide to go full time as soon as they come to terms with themselves...even before hormones, they are SO brave to me. others wait a bit, but eventually decide to go full time when a few people begin to tell them ( Read more... )

So, Webster defines an addict as the devotion or surrendering of oneself to something habitually or obsessively. I’m addicted to the thought of suicide. It consumes me. I can’t free myself from it. As much as I run from it, ignore it, pretend it doesn’t exist within me, it’s there. It always has been. Its allure is too great for me to ignore and I ( Read more... )

it's amazing to me sometimes, the monotony of life. how, on some days we can skip through happily tapping a beat against our hips, and on others, drudge through, dragging our feet through life but we do it everyday anyway. and for what? the same thing. rarely does anything REALLY change. these epsiodes of life (we call thems days) rarely change its ( Read more... )

new, pointless blog. hmmmm....lemme see what's new? i miss having someone special!
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Comprehension...it’s a funny word isn’t it? Honestly, I don't get it. Sometimes this world makes perfect sense. All the planets are aligned and my world is revolving at a steady pace. Then sometimes, just sometimes it makes no sense at all. WTF is going on anyway? Why do we bother with outside problems? Eat and sleep: its all we need. Why do we ( Read more... )

so i'm talking to a ts  friend of mine about going full time and they really opened my eyes...(thanks jackie!)

here's a little background. ive been on hormones for a while. i think i look femme. and thats what everyone tells me (friends and family that know and other that don't. often strangers even feel the need to tell me! lol)...and they say ( Read more... )

Things have been pretty uneventful lately. I haven't gone out in about a week. it's just been school. finals kicked my butt, but eh..what are ya gonna do? i'm getting my hair done later this week. i literally have nothing to talk about. so why am i posting a blog? i have no idea. i just need to see a change on this thing!

i know! ok...lets talk ( Read more... )

well i went out last night and hung out at a bar with a guy friend, no he's not gay but he knows about me. anyway, i was feeling a bit lazy and my mood was pretty down because of things that have happened this week so i just wanted to go out and get drunk and forget (pretty sad huh?) since i was feeling lazy i went in total boi mode (uurggghh..i ( Read more... )

 i love this blog thing. i like being able to put into words what my mind converses with itself everyday...but i noticed as of late, i just haven't been writing blogs. i go in to write, but i don't type. believe me, in my mind the thing just doesn't shut up. and i just realized what it is. i'm tired. i'm exhausted of these thoughts that have ( Read more... )