2008 in a nutshell
Ok so it seems like I didn't do an official resolutions post in January. I talked about it, but didn't because I was drama-ing with Melissa and Mark and I don't know what else. I'm sure I wrote a list in a notebook, but my bookshelf has about twenty notebooks on it, and I don't feel like going through them. Actually, I just looked through one notebook (the first five pages actually) and found it, so scrap that last sentence. I did also write a brief list on the Facebook group that I run, and I vaguely remember doing a catch up post some time half way through the year.
I'll do a resolutions-for-2009 post on New Years Day, provided I'm not working all day (I should only be working five hours). If that's the case, I might do them on New Years Eve.
So 2008 is almost over. It's been a pretty up and down year. Here's my resolutions:
Save money: ok so I didn't really do that at all did I? Well I did until I moved out and paid a bond, and bought a camera.
Eat healthy/properly: didn't really do that one, although I do eat better now than what I did a year ago; more fruit, less junk food, although less food in general.
Make Mark healthy: that one only worked a little as well, he's healthier than he was a year ago at least.
Buy camera: I did that one!
Get a hobby: um I did a photography course, I'm sure that definately counts. I also half took up cross stitching again, and I bake now too.
Clean house: um I moved out, so that just kind of voided that one. I think I'll still try to do it though.
Get a new contract and/or smoke shop and/or new department: well I got a better contract and most of my hours are in the smoke shop so I guess I did that one too.
Get licence: yea that one didn't happen, not for lack of trying though. I only failed three times.
Study lots: I suppose you can say I did that. I did three first semester units and one second semester unit, and I passed them all at least, as well as doing two photography courses.
Make better friends: I met Precious and Lexi, had Melissa for a while, kept in contact with old friends, and got somewhat better acquainted with the girls from work.
I'm sure that in one version of my list move out was on it, and I'm pleased to say that we did that also. I didn't get fit, which I'm sure was also on a list somewhere. I did play soccer for a while, which counts I guess. The dramatics just got to be too much for me.
So what happened in 2008? Well, a lot really. I was going through my photos the other day from 2007 and I realised that not much happened in 2007 that was photo worthy. Has 2008 been any different? I guess I'll find that out when I go through the photos for this year to put in an album. It has been pretty busy though. I got a sex buddy, and then she left, and then I fell in love with her, and Mark and I had our problems. Then we had Mark's birthday, which wasn't really much of an event, but we had a few other things going on around then like other birthdays. We moved out in April (which was before Mark's birthday actually). So I gained independance in 2008, which is a big thing. I started paying my own rent and buying my own household appliances and doing my own cooking. I did at least try to get my licence, but failing three times was too much for me. I took two photography courses, and now I can successfully develop and print black and white negatives and photos, and I can work a digital camera pretty well as well. I did alright in my uni subjects, and I applied to transfer to the psych course (I've been too lazy/apathetic to sign in and see if I got a reply or not). I made new friends, and I don't think I lost any friends this year. I almost lost Drena, and I lost Melissa, but we still talk occasionally. Oh I lost Caleb and Alissa, but that wasn't by any fault of my own really. Caleb fucked up, not me. I diagnosed myself with depression, and then got officially diagnosed, and then started medication and counselling. Now, in like five short months, I'm sure I can get out of this hole. Then Charlotte turned 21, and she came home! And Ally and her are in the same country for the first time in nearly two years. Then Ally and I turned 20, and at my party it was the five of us again just like it was at school.
It sure was an up and down year.
Now another year is over, and I feel better at the end of this year. New Years Eve/Day 07-08 kind of sucked a lot, so I'm really hoping this one will be better. I'm not even sure if I'll be going out, because I'll be working New Years Day. I might just have a quiet one and watch the fireworks from my little balcony. Maybe I'll watch the Sydney fireworks on TV. I'm sure I'll stay up until midnight though, just because I have to. Maybe I'll have people over and we'll drink quietly. Maybe I'll just spend it tucked up in bed. Just as long as I'm not in a bad mood, because I was in a bad mood last New Years, and look how this year turned out.
I feel good about the year ending. The last few years have been a bit of a dead end. In 2006 I fought with the majority of my friends, punched J.D. and got suspended from school, and didn't do as well in my HSC as I wanted to, though I did get into uni. In 2007 I had all that drama with Sarah and Amy and Mark's family hated me for the longest time. This year I moved out, but I admitted that I was depressed. I really hope next year will be a turn for the better. That there might be some hope for 2009. I'm pretty optimistic, now that I'm in a state of mind where I'm sure I can get out of this hole. I'll just keep studying and working and living with Mark, because things are going really well in that area at the moment. Without photography I'll have more time to spend on uni, and hopefully without all the drama of Sarah and Mark's family and my depressed/fucked up mind, I'll have more time to spend with Mark. And now that I have more time to study I should have less incentive to procrastinate, but I'll also have more motivation to do things around the place, like clean and my photos and all the other big organisational jobs I want to do. I'm going to try to be there for Jayden, and be better friends with Louise. I want to get things done. I want to accomplish things.
I am ready for 2009.
I'll do a resolutions-for-2009 post on New Years Day, provided I'm not working all day (I should only be working five hours). If that's the case, I might do them on New Years Eve.
So 2008 is almost over. It's been a pretty up and down year. Here's my resolutions:
Save money: ok so I didn't really do that at all did I? Well I did until I moved out and paid a bond, and bought a camera.
Eat healthy/properly: didn't really do that one, although I do eat better now than what I did a year ago; more fruit, less junk food, although less food in general.
Make Mark healthy: that one only worked a little as well, he's healthier than he was a year ago at least.
Buy camera: I did that one!
Get a hobby: um I did a photography course, I'm sure that definately counts. I also half took up cross stitching again, and I bake now too.
Clean house: um I moved out, so that just kind of voided that one. I think I'll still try to do it though.
Get a new contract and/or smoke shop and/or new department: well I got a better contract and most of my hours are in the smoke shop so I guess I did that one too.
Get licence: yea that one didn't happen, not for lack of trying though. I only failed three times.
Study lots: I suppose you can say I did that. I did three first semester units and one second semester unit, and I passed them all at least, as well as doing two photography courses.
Make better friends: I met Precious and Lexi, had Melissa for a while, kept in contact with old friends, and got somewhat better acquainted with the girls from work.
I'm sure that in one version of my list move out was on it, and I'm pleased to say that we did that also. I didn't get fit, which I'm sure was also on a list somewhere. I did play soccer for a while, which counts I guess. The dramatics just got to be too much for me.
So what happened in 2008? Well, a lot really. I was going through my photos the other day from 2007 and I realised that not much happened in 2007 that was photo worthy. Has 2008 been any different? I guess I'll find that out when I go through the photos for this year to put in an album. It has been pretty busy though. I got a sex buddy, and then she left, and then I fell in love with her, and Mark and I had our problems. Then we had Mark's birthday, which wasn't really much of an event, but we had a few other things going on around then like other birthdays. We moved out in April (which was before Mark's birthday actually). So I gained independance in 2008, which is a big thing. I started paying my own rent and buying my own household appliances and doing my own cooking. I did at least try to get my licence, but failing three times was too much for me. I took two photography courses, and now I can successfully develop and print black and white negatives and photos, and I can work a digital camera pretty well as well. I did alright in my uni subjects, and I applied to transfer to the psych course (I've been too lazy/apathetic to sign in and see if I got a reply or not). I made new friends, and I don't think I lost any friends this year. I almost lost Drena, and I lost Melissa, but we still talk occasionally. Oh I lost Caleb and Alissa, but that wasn't by any fault of my own really. Caleb fucked up, not me. I diagnosed myself with depression, and then got officially diagnosed, and then started medication and counselling. Now, in like five short months, I'm sure I can get out of this hole. Then Charlotte turned 21, and she came home! And Ally and her are in the same country for the first time in nearly two years. Then Ally and I turned 20, and at my party it was the five of us again just like it was at school.
It sure was an up and down year.
Now another year is over, and I feel better at the end of this year. New Years Eve/Day 07-08 kind of sucked a lot, so I'm really hoping this one will be better. I'm not even sure if I'll be going out, because I'll be working New Years Day. I might just have a quiet one and watch the fireworks from my little balcony. Maybe I'll watch the Sydney fireworks on TV. I'm sure I'll stay up until midnight though, just because I have to. Maybe I'll have people over and we'll drink quietly. Maybe I'll just spend it tucked up in bed. Just as long as I'm not in a bad mood, because I was in a bad mood last New Years, and look how this year turned out.
I feel good about the year ending. The last few years have been a bit of a dead end. In 2006 I fought with the majority of my friends, punched J.D. and got suspended from school, and didn't do as well in my HSC as I wanted to, though I did get into uni. In 2007 I had all that drama with Sarah and Amy and Mark's family hated me for the longest time. This year I moved out, but I admitted that I was depressed. I really hope next year will be a turn for the better. That there might be some hope for 2009. I'm pretty optimistic, now that I'm in a state of mind where I'm sure I can get out of this hole. I'll just keep studying and working and living with Mark, because things are going really well in that area at the moment. Without photography I'll have more time to spend on uni, and hopefully without all the drama of Sarah and Mark's family and my depressed/fucked up mind, I'll have more time to spend with Mark. And now that I have more time to study I should have less incentive to procrastinate, but I'll also have more motivation to do things around the place, like clean and my photos and all the other big organisational jobs I want to do. I'm going to try to be there for Jayden, and be better friends with Louise. I want to get things done. I want to accomplish things.
I am ready for 2009.