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Well apperently I did something else wrong at Phi Mu. I have to go there on Thursday for a meeting to discuss it. I'm very worried. I have no idea why I am being called to this meetin. Although I am looking foward to being enlightened as to what I did to offend Alpha Epsilon. I called Larry, and he's all like be cool about it, and I can't. This has ruined my week and quite possibly the next 6 weeks. I may get a little now...I always screw up some how...gotta love me.
For a while I thought I could hate Nick because of how badly he broke my heart. Now I know that I can't. I miss hearing his voice, I miss him terribly. I thought by gving him an ultimatum he would decide he wanted me in his life. I now know that was a mistake. I wish I didn't care for him so much, because knowing I'll never kiss him again,and never again be held in his arms is enough to make me want to sleep all the time so my heart isn't aching. Marcy is gonna tell him about the surprise I was planning b/c I can't bring myself to tell him I what I was planning. Now Im left with a box of stuff and reminders of my feelings for him. I know now it's officially done b/c Nick talked to Marcy and told her it was over. Wow...it really is...over.
Things are not fun right now. I just feel lost again.W/e my life always sucks, and now I don't have Nick to make me smile.
For a while I thought I could hate Nick because of how badly he broke my heart. Now I know that I can't. I miss hearing his voice, I miss him terribly. I thought by gving him an ultimatum he would decide he wanted me in his life. I now know that was a mistake. I wish I didn't care for him so much, because knowing I'll never kiss him again,and never again be held in his arms is enough to make me want to sleep all the time so my heart isn't aching. Marcy is gonna tell him about the surprise I was planning b/c I can't bring myself to tell him I what I was planning. Now Im left with a box of stuff and reminders of my feelings for him. I know now it's officially done b/c Nick talked to Marcy and told her it was over. Wow...it really is...over.
Things are not fun right now. I just feel lost again.W/e my life always sucks, and now I don't have Nick to make me smile.