3rd tri rant
The last few days have been stressful. Work has been busier than usual, and I've been tasked with stuff that while not impossible if I were given more time, do present a bit of a learning curve that requires me to figure out first what and how I'm going to do things, and having to do that in a short time frame is not fun. Not when I'm already not feeling well. I have not been sleeping well & have a sore throat and achy muscles besides. I'm not sure that I actually am sick. I think it might just be the 3rd trimester kicking my butt. Def more difficult than I remember it being than the first time around. For one thing, I get reflux anytime I eat it seems like, no matter what or how much I eat, even if I've been upright the whole time. I'm sure it's at least partly to blame for my sore throat. I also have a hard time getting comfortable. Sitting up straight or leaning forward for small periods of time makes my abdomen ache or tight, and even sitting in the backseat of our car causes this. Same thing when I'm on my feet for too long. It's such a blessing that I can work from home, otherwise I don't know what I would do. On top of all that, I also was diagnosed with gdm, which means I have to test myself constantly and watch what I eat. It's only been a few days and I'm already having such a hard time figuring out what I want to eat that I'm allowed to. Each meal or snack seems like such a struggle, and I have to manage it and testing myself into my busy work schedule. Speaking of which, it's going to be tough trying to catch up on the work that I'm currently behind on, and attend all the appointments I have scheduled this week. And I keep getting contractions now, uncomfortable though not painful, and regular enough esp these last few days that even though I know how painful the real thing feels like, I still wonder if it could be the beginning of actual labor already. And did I mention the mood swings? Stressful indeed.
I am grateful that my husband is taking such good care of me. And the cleaners did just come yesterday so the house is clean, though it could stand to be neater (with a toddler & a busy schedule it never stays neat for very long). I am also looking forward to having my mom come stay with us for a little bit to help take care of T. Though I hope her visit doesn't come with its own type of stress like sometimes only being with my mom can bring. I love my mom, I really do, but sometimes we just don't see eye to eye on everything. But I'll take my mom over my mil anyday. And I am sleepy now, so I'll see if I can go to sleep and wake up early tomorrow to start catching up on work.