I am a huge ball of stress
I'm so stressed. Recently it seems like the slightest provocation can cause me to burst into tears or into a fit of uncontrollable rage. The former has happened four times in the past week (including at A-kon; that was embarrassing) and the latter has happened twice. I've always been a crybaby, but usually it takes someone insulting me to my face (or worse) to set me off. Now I find myself crying just by thinking of things that happened in the past. Self, what is wrong with you?
Yesterday, for some reason, I decided to tell my mother about my problems. Which was also an idiotic move, since I swore I'd never tell her stuff like this again. After 30 minutes of talking, we both agreed that maybe I should see a therapist. But I'm not sure if I should see one over the summer or once I go back to school... Edit: Also, I'm worried they'll just throw meds at me without trying to fix the underlying causes.
It doesn't help that I've been worried about my grades either. I've been trying to access them for a month and a half. Every time I click on "view grades", I get the following message: "An error occurred. Contact the System Administrator". I mentioned it to my mom yesterday and she was like "Oh, I got those a month ago." You mean they've been out for a month but no one bothered to tell me? D:
Last semester's grades: A, A-, A-, B-, I (for imcomplete; it will probably be a low C- when I'm finished)
I guess I should be glad that I haven't received a C this semester (yet), but all those minus signs make me feel like an idiot. Why can't my university just give straight letter grades like a normal school?
ALSO, I AM SICK OF CLEANING UP CAT BARF! I don't know if all cats vomit this much or if it's just mine. For the past 5-6 years they've been throwing up at least once a day, but recently it's gotten more frequent. (And recently the job of cleaning it up has fallen to me since I'm home in the day.) And every time they throw up, it's in two to five places instead of one. I'm so sick of cleaning up cat vomit. And most of it seems to be coming from McKitzey. She throws up after she takes her daily medicine, she throws up after she eats, she throws up when she's scared, she throws up when she's excited... Please tell me all cats don't do this! It makes me never want a pet. ;__;
On a brighter note, I've started power-walking on the treadmill since I'm no longer walking a mile a day for classes. I really hate the treadmill, but the only alternative is to walk outside, and there is nowhere that I particularly want to go. Such are the woes of being in a suburb. I might start lifting weights to build muscle, assuming I don't pull my neck or injure my carpal tunnel like I did the last time I used the weight machine. Wish me luck?
PS-Does anyone have flying or surfing Pikachu from the Pokewalker course that they would trade? I can give you Celebis in return. I also have other legendaries if Celebis don't interest you.
Yesterday, for some reason, I decided to tell my mother about my problems. Which was also an idiotic move, since I swore I'd never tell her stuff like this again. After 30 minutes of talking, we both agreed that maybe I should see a therapist. But I'm not sure if I should see one over the summer or once I go back to school... Edit: Also, I'm worried they'll just throw meds at me without trying to fix the underlying causes.
It doesn't help that I've been worried about my grades either. I've been trying to access them for a month and a half. Every time I click on "view grades", I get the following message: "An error occurred. Contact the System Administrator". I mentioned it to my mom yesterday and she was like "Oh, I got those a month ago." You mean they've been out for a month but no one bothered to tell me? D:
Last semester's grades: A, A-, A-, B-, I (for imcomplete; it will probably be a low C- when I'm finished)
I guess I should be glad that I haven't received a C this semester (yet), but all those minus signs make me feel like an idiot. Why can't my university just give straight letter grades like a normal school?
ALSO, I AM SICK OF CLEANING UP CAT BARF! I don't know if all cats vomit this much or if it's just mine. For the past 5-6 years they've been throwing up at least once a day, but recently it's gotten more frequent. (And recently the job of cleaning it up has fallen to me since I'm home in the day.) And every time they throw up, it's in two to five places instead of one. I'm so sick of cleaning up cat vomit. And most of it seems to be coming from McKitzey. She throws up after she takes her daily medicine, she throws up after she eats, she throws up when she's scared, she throws up when she's excited... Please tell me all cats don't do this! It makes me never want a pet. ;__;
On a brighter note, I've started power-walking on the treadmill since I'm no longer walking a mile a day for classes. I really hate the treadmill, but the only alternative is to walk outside, and there is nowhere that I particularly want to go. Such are the woes of being in a suburb. I might start lifting weights to build muscle, assuming I don't pull my neck or injure my carpal tunnel like I did the last time I used the weight machine. Wish me luck?
PS-Does anyone have flying or surfing Pikachu from the Pokewalker course that they would trade? I can give you Celebis in return. I also have other legendaries if Celebis don't interest you.