Fuck.
I posted this in the Grieving Mothers group on Facebook. I just wanted to document it here and I can't write about it any more right now.
"I lost all of my friends from high school shortly after my son was born still. We are theater people. Some of them, the ones who most callously shunned me after Luke's death, have a local theater troupe here in Louisville that creates scripts based on women's stories. One of the women that founded it has tried to be kind to me and stopped sending me info about their shows, at my request, because it upset me.
Today she slipped up and sent me an invite to their new show, "Becoming Mothers"... Of all the times to slip up! It has really sent me into a downward spiral. For so many reasons. It opened wounds that have been torn open and salted time and again. The loss of Luke, loss of "friends" I had for over 20 years, the fact that I'm alone in all of this, and so much more.
I just had to tell someone who might understand a bit..."
"I lost all of my friends from high school shortly after my son was born still. We are theater people. Some of them, the ones who most callously shunned me after Luke's death, have a local theater troupe here in Louisville that creates scripts based on women's stories. One of the women that founded it has tried to be kind to me and stopped sending me info about their shows, at my request, because it upset me.
Today she slipped up and sent me an invite to their new show, "Becoming Mothers"... Of all the times to slip up! It has really sent me into a downward spiral. For so many reasons. It opened wounds that have been torn open and salted time and again. The loss of Luke, loss of "friends" I had for over 20 years, the fact that I'm alone in all of this, and so much more.
I just had to tell someone who might understand a bit..."