I know I've already said this before but I'm a writer and thus I write to express myself. So here I go again! ;)

I realize in the past I've been coming at this relationship thing from a fear-based place. An "OMG I have to find somebody NOW otherwise life will be horrible!" place. And I used fear to spur me on my "search." And I realize that's the ( Read more... )

I also just want to take this moment and express my thanks for my life and how I'm living it. For thinking and believing and knowing my life is not about anyone else. For knowing my life is about me and not some dude or a child but about me. What brings this on is looking at some of the "where are they now" bios of people I went to high school with ( Read more... )

So obviously I'm going through some growth lately, what with recognizing it's safe to be feminine, and beautiful, and thinking I'm anything less than beautiful doesn't protect me. And if you know me well, you know I've carried around the fear of being sexually assaulted for a long time. But ever since I took a self-defense class in college I haven' ( Read more... )

Oh my goodness. Tonight I learned how to fight with a SWORD. Sort of. I mean, all I know is the down stroke but still! A sword (a wooden one)! So fun! I'm going to learn how to be so badass. Look out world! ;)

Also, does anyone else find when they are scowling (or as my sister says, have a huge FU face on) people say to them, "Smile!" This happens ( Read more... )

Today during my meetup at the Main Library this woman named Monica wandered in. I suspected she was homeless from the way she dressed and the duffel bag she carried in. As we introduced ourselves she went on and on about how she's trying to better herself and improve her situation by marrying a man. She started talking about how she created a dowry ( Read more... )

Sometimes I am just overwhelmed by the splendor of God's creation. As some of you may know, it's the Perseids meteor shower right now. This time last year I was determined to see the meteor shower.

dimethirwen and I had to pick up her friend K from the airport so we didn't have much time to be outdoors. She and I hopped in her car around 9ish and went to the ( Read more... )

Today I read on Jezebel this article about the "Board of Love," which is about a group of women who created a "mate-finding" group. (And yes, I realize I'm way behind in my Jezebel reading.) Anyway, it got me thinking, wtf? When did we get to be like this?

The Board of Love basically functions as a job, women on the prowl to find a man and there's a ( Read more... )

I guess I just wanted to mark, to write down, what a different space I'm in regarding relationships these days.

At the beginning of the year I unconsciously was looking to someone else to "fix" me. I already knew I made myself happy, that I filled up my own cup, but I was looking to someone else to take away my sexual hangups. I was hoping someone ( Read more... )

Last night I was thinking about possible changes in my life due to ladybug sightings. (Dear Lord, please let the change be something other than getting laid off. I don’t think I can go through what I did in 2008 again. But if that’s what you deem for me, ok.) Anyway, I started thinking about a possible change - being in a relationship - and then I ( Read more... )

I've been saying and thinking this for a while but I guess today I finally believe it: my life is so much bigger than whether or not I'm in a relationship.

I used to think dating someone was a goal or something. Like as soon as I had a boyfriend, done. Life is complete. Something like that.

Anyway, today I received an e-mail from a married friend ( Read more... )