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My head hurts today. Of course I dreamed about Chris all night...Well I slept on it and I still am not sure what's going to happen. I wrote him an email but then I didn't end up sending him, basically just saying why I don't know now if I want to be with him. It would probably be better for me to let him come to me. It sucks because what he wants me to do as far as changing my flight was something I wanted to try to do anyway. But now I don't know because I need to feel like he actually wants me there more than he wants to control me. It is so hard because I do know that we can be together and be happy, if he changes some things. But he isn't what I need right now. Maybe he will be, but he doesn't deserve me until he is.
Right now I still think there's a possibility of working it all out. But he's got to make the effort. It's up to him this time. So we will have to wait and see if he gets in touch with me and apologizes and commits to make some changes.
Well I'm pretty hungry so I'm gonna go eat. Hopefully there's something good at Moody.
Right now I still think there's a possibility of working it all out. But he's got to make the effort. It's up to him this time. So we will have to wait and see if he gets in touch with me and apologizes and commits to make some changes.
Well I'm pretty hungry so I'm gonna go eat. Hopefully there's something good at Moody.