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An update on this whole work situation...
So this morning I was already pretty pissed about the whole thing with Ted more or less criticizing me for everything I have done all week for my Harrison Bergeron unit. I went to work early to make some copies and when I went into the classroom after doing that he was there. The first thing I noticed was that he had written on the board for HW that the test is tomorrow. Ummm...okay, it was supposed to be on Friday. As far as he knew, I was still planning on using this unit for my portfolio, and I needed to have 5 days of lesson plans. Which I have repeated to him over and over. I had told him what I planned to do tomorrow and everything...and he seemed okay with it. But apparently he didn't approve b/c he just totally cut that day out of the plan and said the test is going to be tomorrow. The thing that bothered me about that was that he didn't even say anything to me about it. It was so passive agressive. Not to mention, he didn't know that I didn't stay up late last night developing the lesson plan for that day and organizing what I wanted to do, which I thought about doing, but changed my mind b/c of the fact that this whole unit was turning into something that wasn't mine any more and I couldn't really deal with it any more last night. Then he showed me the study guide (which he had already made copies of without showing it to me) and seriously treated me like an idiot saying things like "Do you know the answer to this?" "Explain to me what this means." I'm not freaking stupid. One thing on there I didn't know, but it was some obscure thing that he learned when he worked on a reservation...and he certainly could have filled me in on that and trusted me to understand the rest of the worksheet, which was just asking questions about the story. So first period began and I really felt like a substitute. He stayed in the classroom all day today (normally he leaves me alone) just watching me do his lesson plan. Of course, he has every right to be there, it's his classroom. But it just seemed really odd that he is suddenly doing it when he hasn't been in the past.
So tomorrow I will be giving the kids his test that he created ("with" me--but yeah). He even changed the essay section that he told me to type up, which I did and emailed to him yesterday. He didn't want the font the way it was or something. And he changed one of the topics. And I actually like that change, but I felt like I totally wasted my time typing the thing up since he re-did it anyway.
I really didn't say much to him for most of the day. But I knew I needed to be my usual friendly, nice self...so I faked it in the end and I'm acting as normal as possible considering how frustrated I am by him lately. Oh, and today, in the middle of my lesson, he interrupted me. He isn't supposed to do that. I mean, I can understand if he thinks of something he really wants to say to the kids and he has given me a chance to and I didn't. But I had begun explaining "crab mentality" to them, which was the thing he had explained to me in the morning. I got the concept after he explained it and I was discussing it with the kids. And before I was able to get in like 5 words he jumped in and started explaining it. It's just like...I feel like he thinks I am stupid or something. At least give me the chance to tell them about it and then if you think I didn't do a good job, then say something. But to interrupt me as I was speaking was just rude.
Grr...sorry to vent so much about work, but it helps to get out my feelings in writing.
Surprisingly, I am really calm tonight. Yesterday I was all upset about this, stressing out. And today I am okay. I guess b/c I expected it more, whereas yesterday it all seemed kinda out of nowhere. But I have a lot of work to do tonight.
I got the okay from the woman in charge of student teaching at UNH to do my 5-day portfolio unit on half of The Giver unit. She said that sounds like a good idea. But I have to make sure that this time around, I actually get to plan it out and do it, and that it doesn't get taken over by Ted once again. So my plan tonight and over the next couple of days is to get a general outline of what I am going to do and a couple of lesson plan outlines done. I will have those done by the end of the week to bring into work and say, look, this is what I am doing. If you have an issue with it tell me now before I start it and let ME make changes as needed.
I am dreading my mid-term meeting tomorrow. I really think I have done a good job. But I worry about their perception of me. I mean, this whole issue from this week needs to be brought up--and is Ted going to blast me and say I am incompetent and my lesson plans suck? Or will it become clear that what I had planned was perfectly fine and that he really needed to take a step back and let me do it before jumping to conclusions that this was not going to end up the way he wanted it to? I don't know exactly what I will say about it all yet but I think I have to say something. I guess I will just say that I have felt a little uncomfortable the last few days b/c I feel like there has been some miscommunication. That I talked to Ted last week and even before that and explained what I needed to do for my portfolio unit, and that I wanted to do it on this story, and that I needed to have 5 days of lesson plans and the last day could not be just a test. And that he insisted on having the test take up a whole period the 5th day and then even said I needed to shorten the unit to 4 days. I want to say that I spent a lot of time thinking about this and planning ahead and typing up lesson plans to submit and that I don't really understand why he couldn't let me do what I had planned. I am so nonconfrontational that I don't totally want to bring any of this up. But I worry that if I don't, then something like this will happen again next week, and it's really my last chance to do my mini-unit next week.
I feel like there's been a total reversal lately. Everything seemed to be going really well. I thought Ted was great. He was giving me a lot of freedom to do what I wanted and to be the teacher (like I should be). And then this week he has been the complete opposite.
Well I need to get off of here and start planning for The Giver. And I swear, if I spend an hour or two tonight working, and then get told tomorrow that my plans aren't good enough...I am going to be really angry. But I'm going to think positive and think that it won't be like that, and that this week was just an off week for some reason??
So this morning I was already pretty pissed about the whole thing with Ted more or less criticizing me for everything I have done all week for my Harrison Bergeron unit. I went to work early to make some copies and when I went into the classroom after doing that he was there. The first thing I noticed was that he had written on the board for HW that the test is tomorrow. Ummm...okay, it was supposed to be on Friday. As far as he knew, I was still planning on using this unit for my portfolio, and I needed to have 5 days of lesson plans. Which I have repeated to him over and over. I had told him what I planned to do tomorrow and everything...and he seemed okay with it. But apparently he didn't approve b/c he just totally cut that day out of the plan and said the test is going to be tomorrow. The thing that bothered me about that was that he didn't even say anything to me about it. It was so passive agressive. Not to mention, he didn't know that I didn't stay up late last night developing the lesson plan for that day and organizing what I wanted to do, which I thought about doing, but changed my mind b/c of the fact that this whole unit was turning into something that wasn't mine any more and I couldn't really deal with it any more last night. Then he showed me the study guide (which he had already made copies of without showing it to me) and seriously treated me like an idiot saying things like "Do you know the answer to this?" "Explain to me what this means." I'm not freaking stupid. One thing on there I didn't know, but it was some obscure thing that he learned when he worked on a reservation...and he certainly could have filled me in on that and trusted me to understand the rest of the worksheet, which was just asking questions about the story. So first period began and I really felt like a substitute. He stayed in the classroom all day today (normally he leaves me alone) just watching me do his lesson plan. Of course, he has every right to be there, it's his classroom. But it just seemed really odd that he is suddenly doing it when he hasn't been in the past.
So tomorrow I will be giving the kids his test that he created ("with" me--but yeah). He even changed the essay section that he told me to type up, which I did and emailed to him yesterday. He didn't want the font the way it was or something. And he changed one of the topics. And I actually like that change, but I felt like I totally wasted my time typing the thing up since he re-did it anyway.
I really didn't say much to him for most of the day. But I knew I needed to be my usual friendly, nice self...so I faked it in the end and I'm acting as normal as possible considering how frustrated I am by him lately. Oh, and today, in the middle of my lesson, he interrupted me. He isn't supposed to do that. I mean, I can understand if he thinks of something he really wants to say to the kids and he has given me a chance to and I didn't. But I had begun explaining "crab mentality" to them, which was the thing he had explained to me in the morning. I got the concept after he explained it and I was discussing it with the kids. And before I was able to get in like 5 words he jumped in and started explaining it. It's just like...I feel like he thinks I am stupid or something. At least give me the chance to tell them about it and then if you think I didn't do a good job, then say something. But to interrupt me as I was speaking was just rude.
Grr...sorry to vent so much about work, but it helps to get out my feelings in writing.
Surprisingly, I am really calm tonight. Yesterday I was all upset about this, stressing out. And today I am okay. I guess b/c I expected it more, whereas yesterday it all seemed kinda out of nowhere. But I have a lot of work to do tonight.
I got the okay from the woman in charge of student teaching at UNH to do my 5-day portfolio unit on half of The Giver unit. She said that sounds like a good idea. But I have to make sure that this time around, I actually get to plan it out and do it, and that it doesn't get taken over by Ted once again. So my plan tonight and over the next couple of days is to get a general outline of what I am going to do and a couple of lesson plan outlines done. I will have those done by the end of the week to bring into work and say, look, this is what I am doing. If you have an issue with it tell me now before I start it and let ME make changes as needed.
I am dreading my mid-term meeting tomorrow. I really think I have done a good job. But I worry about their perception of me. I mean, this whole issue from this week needs to be brought up--and is Ted going to blast me and say I am incompetent and my lesson plans suck? Or will it become clear that what I had planned was perfectly fine and that he really needed to take a step back and let me do it before jumping to conclusions that this was not going to end up the way he wanted it to? I don't know exactly what I will say about it all yet but I think I have to say something. I guess I will just say that I have felt a little uncomfortable the last few days b/c I feel like there has been some miscommunication. That I talked to Ted last week and even before that and explained what I needed to do for my portfolio unit, and that I wanted to do it on this story, and that I needed to have 5 days of lesson plans and the last day could not be just a test. And that he insisted on having the test take up a whole period the 5th day and then even said I needed to shorten the unit to 4 days. I want to say that I spent a lot of time thinking about this and planning ahead and typing up lesson plans to submit and that I don't really understand why he couldn't let me do what I had planned. I am so nonconfrontational that I don't totally want to bring any of this up. But I worry that if I don't, then something like this will happen again next week, and it's really my last chance to do my mini-unit next week.
I feel like there's been a total reversal lately. Everything seemed to be going really well. I thought Ted was great. He was giving me a lot of freedom to do what I wanted and to be the teacher (like I should be). And then this week he has been the complete opposite.
Well I need to get off of here and start planning for The Giver. And I swear, if I spend an hour or two tonight working, and then get told tomorrow that my plans aren't good enough...I am going to be really angry. But I'm going to think positive and think that it won't be like that, and that this week was just an off week for some reason??