God...God help me.
So let me tell you the most recent things on my mind.
I don't remember if I mentioned or not that Jeff eventually contacted me, and we talked for a little bit in a less awkward frame of speaking. As much as I don't want to admit it, My fucking heart almost beat out of my chest. I get so nervous...and what the fuck for? I forgot what I was going to say and I didn't know what the hell to do.
I had a talk with Morgan about this like 12 seconds ago, so I will share. Apparantly from what she tells me out of all of us, which we were all great friends, the only one he calls and keeps in contact with is Erin Adams. Which is real fucked up because they never even talked at all, they were like aquantinces. And Erin is cool and I like her, but she is real...like...for lack of a better term "hippish."
She wears the long skirts and the bob marely shirts and everything made out of hemp possible. And Erin is a cute girl, don't get me wrong I think she is adorable and I like her style- but Jeff is like....I'm white but I think I'm black and wears gangster clothes and all that great stuff. It's just so awkward. Anyways he might just be trying to call her for a friend sort of thing, It might not be anything like that...but it is strange that he just calls her out of nowhere and is like 'hey, lets hang out.'
They have totally different frames of mind. No matching intrests other than weed, and I think thats probably it for anything in this world or any other.
So I don't know why I still give a fuck, and do I think Erin would do that to me? Absolutley. I don't trust anyone not to, because when I have and do, They fuck me, and fuck me hard they will. I will tell you of ONE girl who was considerate and kind enough NOT to fuck me over, and that was Lindsey Bowser. And that was out of the pure goodness and honesty of her heart because she had no reason to like me, because we didn't really know eachother and I had been rude to her before, because Cory had pushed me to thinking she was some mean bitch that I should hate when she is the complete opposite. She is the only girl who out of consideration for MY feelings saved me the worst pain and problems anyone ever has in my life, and for that I will always hold very high respect for her and if she ever randomly asked me to help her I would do it no matter what it was.
But as for everyone else I know, the majority of the female race are fucking skanks with nothing better to do that fuck you over no matter if you used to be friends or Best friends or anything along that line. Girls who don't even know me, but know my story will try to fuck me over and take who I'm with-not because they like them- but just to try to show me they CAN. Well it hasn't happend yet, and if it ever does I will fuck that bitch's life up so bad she will regret everything she ever did to me.
A list:
1) Tara White (former stripper, turned mommy of two, Karmas a bitch, bitch.)
2) Kara...Something...I forgot..has huge buck teeth, you know her, I'm sure.
3) Amy lee (some stupid fucking school-band geek who had a chance to redeem herself but lied like a stupid coward trying to lure my bitch of a boyfriend via-cheesy e-mails on myspace.)
4) Ashley Mcdaniel (Mcnasty-for all of you who know her. Tried to break Cory and me up unsuccsessfully because he thinks she is gross, and also because she has a penis.)
and those are my top four. And if I ever see them in public, permitting I won't get arrested, I will show them what I think. As a matter of fact I ran into good old Tara not too long ago, and she tried to look cute in front of everyone but that didn't work, no bitch..you're not cute.
So I think I am done ranting and I am sure if anything happens with Jeff and Erin I will say some more.
I don't remember if I mentioned or not that Jeff eventually contacted me, and we talked for a little bit in a less awkward frame of speaking. As much as I don't want to admit it, My fucking heart almost beat out of my chest. I get so nervous...and what the fuck for? I forgot what I was going to say and I didn't know what the hell to do.
I had a talk with Morgan about this like 12 seconds ago, so I will share. Apparantly from what she tells me out of all of us, which we were all great friends, the only one he calls and keeps in contact with is Erin Adams. Which is real fucked up because they never even talked at all, they were like aquantinces. And Erin is cool and I like her, but she is real...like...for lack of a better term "hippish."
She wears the long skirts and the bob marely shirts and everything made out of hemp possible. And Erin is a cute girl, don't get me wrong I think she is adorable and I like her style- but Jeff is like....I'm white but I think I'm black and wears gangster clothes and all that great stuff. It's just so awkward. Anyways he might just be trying to call her for a friend sort of thing, It might not be anything like that...but it is strange that he just calls her out of nowhere and is like 'hey, lets hang out.'
They have totally different frames of mind. No matching intrests other than weed, and I think thats probably it for anything in this world or any other.
So I don't know why I still give a fuck, and do I think Erin would do that to me? Absolutley. I don't trust anyone not to, because when I have and do, They fuck me, and fuck me hard they will. I will tell you of ONE girl who was considerate and kind enough NOT to fuck me over, and that was Lindsey Bowser. And that was out of the pure goodness and honesty of her heart because she had no reason to like me, because we didn't really know eachother and I had been rude to her before, because Cory had pushed me to thinking she was some mean bitch that I should hate when she is the complete opposite. She is the only girl who out of consideration for MY feelings saved me the worst pain and problems anyone ever has in my life, and for that I will always hold very high respect for her and if she ever randomly asked me to help her I would do it no matter what it was.
But as for everyone else I know, the majority of the female race are fucking skanks with nothing better to do that fuck you over no matter if you used to be friends or Best friends or anything along that line. Girls who don't even know me, but know my story will try to fuck me over and take who I'm with-not because they like them- but just to try to show me they CAN. Well it hasn't happend yet, and if it ever does I will fuck that bitch's life up so bad she will regret everything she ever did to me.
A list:
1) Tara White (former stripper, turned mommy of two, Karmas a bitch, bitch.)
2) Kara...Something...I forgot..has huge buck teeth, you know her, I'm sure.
3) Amy lee (some stupid fucking school-band geek who had a chance to redeem herself but lied like a stupid coward trying to lure my bitch of a boyfriend via-cheesy e-mails on myspace.)
4) Ashley Mcdaniel (Mcnasty-for all of you who know her. Tried to break Cory and me up unsuccsessfully because he thinks she is gross, and also because she has a penis.)
and those are my top four. And if I ever see them in public, permitting I won't get arrested, I will show them what I think. As a matter of fact I ran into good old Tara not too long ago, and she tried to look cute in front of everyone but that didn't work, no bitch..you're not cute.
So I think I am done ranting and I am sure if anything happens with Jeff and Erin I will say some more.