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I had the best 4th of july I've ever had. spent half the day on the waterfront, the other half at the magnificent beach house. got a souvenier dog tag from a store on the waterfront- it has an etching of the skyline with "kreeton is teh awesome" printed on it. it's pretty much my favorite necklace right now.
my last few days have had sort of an absence of dinner. I'll nibble something, or have a weird combination of foods that sort of makes up my dinner. and then I get hungry before bed and go to sleep craving some bizarre, like tacos and rice krispies, because my meals are all out of whack.
I haven't found bern's obit yet and I'm not thinking there will be one. I'll ask people at the mount for more information.
I have a really ubercomfy new pair of pants. they're perfect for summer- not thick or anything- they're a little baggy but they're sooooo comfortable. they can go either as pajama bottoms, lounge pants, or lazy dress day pants. oddly, they have a fairy on the side. I'm not into fairies at ALL but I thought these were really modest. there's a first time for everything, I guess!
damnit!! I just realized my LJ account is going to expire. oh crappitydamn.
the upgrade to fast internet will happen soon. it needs to... I have music I want to try and I can't do any of the stuff I want to do with dial-up. blegh to you, dial-up, BLEGH!!
I have really interesting things happening to me right now. I'm trying to be private and graceful and not let myself explode and it gets a little harder everyday, but I have help...a helper who keeps me grounded. I'm really enoying my life right now, despite some ocassional moments of re-evaluating the validity of these past events. I'm really happy, amidst my confusion and self-control bordering on schoolgirl giddiness, and I find strength in my private dialogues with her. one day at a time, that's all there is to it. and patience is always greatly rewarded, some way or another, and I do manage to find solace through all of this.
really, I'm just happy. I'm just really happy.
and I really feel like she's telling me that everything really is going to be okay.
my last few days have had sort of an absence of dinner. I'll nibble something, or have a weird combination of foods that sort of makes up my dinner. and then I get hungry before bed and go to sleep craving some bizarre, like tacos and rice krispies, because my meals are all out of whack.
I haven't found bern's obit yet and I'm not thinking there will be one. I'll ask people at the mount for more information.
I have a really ubercomfy new pair of pants. they're perfect for summer- not thick or anything- they're a little baggy but they're sooooo comfortable. they can go either as pajama bottoms, lounge pants, or lazy dress day pants. oddly, they have a fairy on the side. I'm not into fairies at ALL but I thought these were really modest. there's a first time for everything, I guess!
damnit!! I just realized my LJ account is going to expire. oh crappitydamn.
the upgrade to fast internet will happen soon. it needs to... I have music I want to try and I can't do any of the stuff I want to do with dial-up. blegh to you, dial-up, BLEGH!!
I have really interesting things happening to me right now. I'm trying to be private and graceful and not let myself explode and it gets a little harder everyday, but I have help...a helper who keeps me grounded. I'm really enoying my life right now, despite some ocassional moments of re-evaluating the validity of these past events. I'm really happy, amidst my confusion and self-control bordering on schoolgirl giddiness, and I find strength in my private dialogues with her. one day at a time, that's all there is to it. and patience is always greatly rewarded, some way or another, and I do manage to find solace through all of this.
really, I'm just happy. I'm just really happy.
and I really feel like she's telling me that everything really is going to be okay.