Wheee!
Had pizza-dinner with Katie after work last night, and gave her her gift.
Hooray for fueling Beatles-based obsessions...
I had plans for karaoke that I was looking forward to, but circumstances changed, so I spent the evening and wee hours with Timm and Enda (and Timm's friends Kyle & Tia). 'Twas fun, and I got to give them their gifts as well.
Hooray for fueling Happy Feet-based obsessions...
Then we drove around a bit, having "an adventure" and we found ourselves at "the Path"(mark) where I bought some juice and Ricolas, and had a magazine bought for me by Timm.
Hooray for fueling Jack Sparrow-based obsessions...
:)
Then we went to WalMart to play with toys and sit on other people's furniture. Heh.
Anyway, that was last night.
Today, I woke up and the world sucked again.
I found out--via MySpace... nice.--that Rory's engaged to Kat (ah, the way things have changed for each of us in the last year...).
Other weddings are happening all over. People are happy and planning their New Year's celebrations and resolutions and futures and all that... and all I want is for next year not to suck.
So far, I don't have high hopes.
I'm very lonely.
My heart is empty and aches every day...
But I don't want "someone new" so what am I so lonely for?
I don't want anything, because I had EVERYTHING I wanted.
I know. I'm depressing and pathetic and pointless as hell. Where did the "real" Stephie go?
I want her back, too.
Resolution. There. Happy?
The only good thing to speak of lately is that my friend Jesse Schmidt will be arriving today to spend the weekend (and subsequently New Year's Eve) with me. So yay. I have a "date" for New Year's. Huzzah. I'm excited to get to know him again after 20 years (seriously. We went our seperate ways around 1st grade), and he will be at Rocky tonight to watch me embarass myself as Janet. I haven't played Janet in about 2 months. heh.
I was considering friends-only-ing this post... but why bother?
Excited to see Jesse today. He'll be here around 8 or 9. Someone come help me dye my hair before then? I'm tired of my gray streaks and looking so... "brown." We're gonna get Jesse all made up and Rocky-ed out, too. :) Woot. He's so game. I don't know if he's a "Virgin" or not, though... hee hee hee.
Sorry for the manic, bi-polar post. I'm PMSing like a bitch on top of everything else. Yargh.
I miss my life.
~Steph~
Hooray for fueling Beatles-based obsessions...
I had plans for karaoke that I was looking forward to, but circumstances changed, so I spent the evening and wee hours with Timm and Enda (and Timm's friends Kyle & Tia). 'Twas fun, and I got to give them their gifts as well.
Hooray for fueling Happy Feet-based obsessions...
Then we drove around a bit, having "an adventure" and we found ourselves at "the Path"(mark) where I bought some juice and Ricolas, and had a magazine bought for me by Timm.
Hooray for fueling Jack Sparrow-based obsessions...
:)
Then we went to WalMart to play with toys and sit on other people's furniture. Heh.
Anyway, that was last night.
Today, I woke up and the world sucked again.
I found out--via MySpace... nice.--that Rory's engaged to Kat (ah, the way things have changed for each of us in the last year...).
Other weddings are happening all over. People are happy and planning their New Year's celebrations and resolutions and futures and all that... and all I want is for next year not to suck.
So far, I don't have high hopes.
I'm very lonely.
My heart is empty and aches every day...
But I don't want "someone new" so what am I so lonely for?
I don't want anything, because I had EVERYTHING I wanted.
I know. I'm depressing and pathetic and pointless as hell. Where did the "real" Stephie go?
I want her back, too.
Resolution. There. Happy?
The only good thing to speak of lately is that my friend Jesse Schmidt will be arriving today to spend the weekend (and subsequently New Year's Eve) with me. So yay. I have a "date" for New Year's. Huzzah. I'm excited to get to know him again after 20 years (seriously. We went our seperate ways around 1st grade), and he will be at Rocky tonight to watch me embarass myself as Janet. I haven't played Janet in about 2 months. heh.
I was considering friends-only-ing this post... but why bother?
Excited to see Jesse today. He'll be here around 8 or 9. Someone come help me dye my hair before then? I'm tired of my gray streaks and looking so... "brown." We're gonna get Jesse all made up and Rocky-ed out, too. :) Woot. He's so game. I don't know if he's a "Virgin" or not, though... hee hee hee.
Sorry for the manic, bi-polar post. I'm PMSing like a bitch on top of everything else. Yargh.
I miss my life.
~Steph~