well then....
well today was alright...i decided something though....tweekers are gross...i mean i have nothing against them, i have some of them as friends, but they are nasty, like jessi, his ribs are all nasty and sticking out...yuck! but school was fine today...almost got kicked outa math because of the sub...i got to drive manda's car, i am doing so much better dammit!!!!
so cristian is pushing me away and it really, REALLY blows!!!! i don't know what to do, but lately he has gotten distant, and has been mean to me about everything...and really judgemental towards me (which is really unlike him)...i don't want to lose him, no matter how stupid that sounds, but oh well...i guess if it is meant to happen, then it will...but i miss him and how he used to be towards me...always there, we would talk on the phone and hang out everyday...but that is fading away quickly...he ahsn't really been over since he pulled the whole making out with my neck thingy....but i dunno...i love the kid so much...but what is meant to be will be...
and lemme tell you something....it sucks liking one of your friends....especially when no one knows you like them....shhh big secret...i no tell anyone...hehe...oh well...
but i have to go to bed now...love ya'll...night night...bye
~love always and forever~
**amy**