Oh man, no more weekend
So, this weekend was pretty kickin. Thursday and friday were kinda a blur, I just remember they were fun, though friday I went to the doctor, and I got an antibiotic that I think I need to stop taking because it makes me extremely dizzy sometimes. Also friday I went to madison, bought a new wallet, and hung out with amanda for a good long while, and she is just staggering in a perfectly awesome way. I can't even put it into words. The only really bad thing that happened on friday was that my paycheck has been lost. I went to the bank to get some money out to pay some bills, and they said it wasn't deposited yet, (I have direct deposit) and so I asked if it was put into my old account as I had recently closed it and opened a new one. Nope. so I went to work, and they didn't have it, so apparently my fucking 700 dollars is just floating somewhere, and I can't get it, I'm supposed to check back monday.
So... Saturday, I met amanda's family, and not just her mom(I met her before) but also her dad, her brother, and a good deal of her extended family, I was a bit scared and such, but after a bit, I hate to admit, I had A LOT of fun, and I really like them all, and am hoping that I made a good impression because I really really love amanda, and so being on good terms with her family is super important to me.
Today, I didn't do much, I had to stay home and watch the dog and such, and I played a lot of ddr, but that's about it. I've just kinda been staying in my room and trying to keep myself composed and such because everything I do isn't good enough for my family, and I have the feeling that nothing I do is good enough for anybody. I feel so helpless when it comes to the people I care about. I'm kinda sick of not being good at anything, I mean, I can do several things, but I can't do any of them really well, and I just want to find something that i exceed at. but I'm tired.
love,
the pete
So... Saturday, I met amanda's family, and not just her mom(I met her before) but also her dad, her brother, and a good deal of her extended family, I was a bit scared and such, but after a bit, I hate to admit, I had A LOT of fun, and I really like them all, and am hoping that I made a good impression because I really really love amanda, and so being on good terms with her family is super important to me.
Today, I didn't do much, I had to stay home and watch the dog and such, and I played a lot of ddr, but that's about it. I've just kinda been staying in my room and trying to keep myself composed and such because everything I do isn't good enough for my family, and I have the feeling that nothing I do is good enough for anybody. I feel so helpless when it comes to the people I care about. I'm kinda sick of not being good at anything, I mean, I can do several things, but I can't do any of them really well, and I just want to find something that i exceed at. but I'm tired.
love,
the pete