Stupid parents
ok, so work sucked ass today, the stupid bitch lady that was supposed to do the job didn't because she was pissy, and I don't really see how that's my problem, I was just kinda pissed off this morning because it was basically like I hadn't come in all week, that's how far behind I was. oh well.
Amanda had her concert at the STATE CAPITOL today, and I really wish I could have seen it, it meant a lot to her, but she said she did well, so I'm super happy about that.
My parents are fucking retarded. I just had a talk with them and the jist of it was how I(with NO criminal record, I don't even smoke or drink or do drugs) am a worse example on my brothers because my room is clean. I told them that I was going to start shooting up heroin(I'm not) and they said "as long as your room is clean, you can do do whatever you want" yes, that's an exact quote.
I don't get it, I'm going to school in the fall, I'm not abusive, I don't lie or steal, and still I'M the shitty kid. I'm only 19 years old, I can only do so much.
I give up, I'm so close to just falling again and cutting and doing all the horrible nasty things to myself that I used to, but I Can't, I won't rather, I don't get it. It feels really good though, and I think it's all because of how much I like amanda, and I can't thank her enough for that.
and, I want to fly. I'm going to skydive this year, and I want to get certified, and it's going to be great. I'm going to fly, really fly.
Amanda had her concert at the STATE CAPITOL today, and I really wish I could have seen it, it meant a lot to her, but she said she did well, so I'm super happy about that.
My parents are fucking retarded. I just had a talk with them and the jist of it was how I(with NO criminal record, I don't even smoke or drink or do drugs) am a worse example on my brothers because my room is clean. I told them that I was going to start shooting up heroin(I'm not) and they said "as long as your room is clean, you can do do whatever you want" yes, that's an exact quote.
I don't get it, I'm going to school in the fall, I'm not abusive, I don't lie or steal, and still I'M the shitty kid. I'm only 19 years old, I can only do so much.
I give up, I'm so close to just falling again and cutting and doing all the horrible nasty things to myself that I used to, but I Can't, I won't rather, I don't get it. It feels really good though, and I think it's all because of how much I like amanda, and I can't thank her enough for that.
and, I want to fly. I'm going to skydive this year, and I want to get certified, and it's going to be great. I'm going to fly, really fly.