Stupid meds.....
ok, well. not too much has happened this week really, I hung out with amanda a lot, and I still am so totally in love with her. I know it's only been 2 months, but it's been a great 2 months, at least for me, though I always feel like I make her mad, and that I'm bringing her down, and I can't stand that feeling at all. She deserves such wonderful things, and I try as hard as I can, but it still feels like I can never do enough, and I know that most of it is just because she's stressed from student teaching and such, but I just don't have anything that I feel I can contribute to make her feel better, I try, I really do, but I just don't know where she's coming from sometimes, at least, I don't know what to say. I love her though, and dammit, I'm going to try until it kills me.
Speaking of ailments, there is a GIANT blister thing behind my ear, caused by an antibiotic for my nose. So of course I changed meds, and this stuff makes me feel so sick that I can't even sit up sometimes, like right now. It's I believe the first time I have ever passed up doing something with amanda... EVER. but I'm so sick that I honestly don't think I could make the 20 minute drive without throwing up at least twice. I don't even KNOW how I made it up to madison today, but I Did, and I got my suit:D it's so nice, it's a black suit with window pane stripes, as opposed to the standard pinstripe. I can't wait to wear it, but more, I can't wait to see amanda in HER dress. she's going to be so beautiful, and I may actually ask my doctor about some heart medicine just incase I get a REALLY good look at her. Don't worry, the ticker's fine.
I'm going to lay down now though, I may actually turn in for the night..... I feel so bad about not being able to do something with amanda, I really wish I could, but hopefully I'll feel better by tomorrow.
Speaking of ailments, there is a GIANT blister thing behind my ear, caused by an antibiotic for my nose. So of course I changed meds, and this stuff makes me feel so sick that I can't even sit up sometimes, like right now. It's I believe the first time I have ever passed up doing something with amanda... EVER. but I'm so sick that I honestly don't think I could make the 20 minute drive without throwing up at least twice. I don't even KNOW how I made it up to madison today, but I Did, and I got my suit:D it's so nice, it's a black suit with window pane stripes, as opposed to the standard pinstripe. I can't wait to wear it, but more, I can't wait to see amanda in HER dress. she's going to be so beautiful, and I may actually ask my doctor about some heart medicine just incase I get a REALLY good look at her. Don't worry, the ticker's fine.
I'm going to lay down now though, I may actually turn in for the night..... I feel so bad about not being able to do something with amanda, I really wish I could, but hopefully I'll feel better by tomorrow.