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I feel kind of weird posting in here... I read some earlier posts and they're from like...before Nick and I broke up. Weird...
Speaking of Nick. I love him, in case any of you forgot. We have a pretty stable relationship right now, and we're pretty much back to normal. We're going to the melting pot on saturday night, so that should be nice. We're really getting along well lately. We don't talk all that often - maybe once a week or two - but it's good. We're both busy, and it works. We're just really good friends again, and it's really nice. Yes, we have talked about the us thing, b/c when I'm around him too much I get all emotional and profess my undying love for him, and we've both kind of decided that there's a fair to good chance that we might end up together in the end, but for right now it's not the greatest idea. I like that. Remember when I couldn't stand the thought of a serious relationship but I still wanted to make out/sleep with everyone? Yeah...I don't want anything to do with anything that has a penis (except Nathan...but he's gay, so does it really count? and I don't want anything physical with him) What's up with me? So weird with my history. I just really like the whole going about life thing without worrying about boys.... I have no idea what my life will hold in the next two years...will I start teaching? go to grad school? what do I go to grad school for? Choral conducting? music education? I'm totally clueless, and I kind of like only having to worry about that, instead of what some guy thinks.
So here's the deal with Will... it's really weird...and I just kind of ignore any awkwardness b/c it isn't really as awkward as you might think. So over the summer I broke off the engagement hoping it would give him some motivation to get off of his ass and do something with his life. No such luck...and in the process I kind of just stopped caring about the whole situation and currently have no romantic feelings for him. So like 2 months ago I told him I didn't want to be in a relationship with him, and so we're not. Yes we still live together and yes we have a puppy together. The puppy thing probably wasn't the best idea, but it'll work out. Now...it took Will a while to get the hint that we weren't together and he kept trying to do everything he used to do, but I shut it down pretty early and now we're good. There really isn't that much awkward...you'd think it'd be pretty bad, but we're fine as long as he doesn't try to feel me up. But since we broke up, he has taken it upon himself (something very rare for him...) to apply to attend orlando culinary institute and will be going there next semester. It took him long enough, but w/e. I don't anticipate ever wanting to be with him again, but I don't want to be with anyone right now, so I can't really say that for sure. Everyone thinks he's gay anyways.
I really need to practice this week... My senior recital is April 10th at 4pm...that better be on your calendars right now. I intend to have another really good semester vocally. I improved a lot this semester and I sound pretty damn good right now.
I really need to go to sleep...I've become nocturnal and I don't like it.
I'll be home this friday and I want to go out. We should do that. Downtown melbourne maybe? If you're the bar type, you should come. Matt's Casbah(sp?) is pretty nice.
So I recently discovered Pandora, and I can't believe I've been living without it for so long. I LOVE it! it chooses such good music for me. Music by bands I've never heard of, but greatly enjoy.
Grey's Anatomy makes me cry a lot, and I kind of like it. It's been awhile since I've cried, and it feels remarkably nice. I'm a notorious cryer, and not doing it is just kind of weird for me... it makes me feel better to cry sometimes. Especially when I don't have a real reason my own to cry.
ok, shower now, and then sleep...I promise! Anyone wanna go dancing thursday?
Speaking of Nick. I love him, in case any of you forgot. We have a pretty stable relationship right now, and we're pretty much back to normal. We're going to the melting pot on saturday night, so that should be nice. We're really getting along well lately. We don't talk all that often - maybe once a week or two - but it's good. We're both busy, and it works. We're just really good friends again, and it's really nice. Yes, we have talked about the us thing, b/c when I'm around him too much I get all emotional and profess my undying love for him, and we've both kind of decided that there's a fair to good chance that we might end up together in the end, but for right now it's not the greatest idea. I like that. Remember when I couldn't stand the thought of a serious relationship but I still wanted to make out/sleep with everyone? Yeah...I don't want anything to do with anything that has a penis (except Nathan...but he's gay, so does it really count? and I don't want anything physical with him) What's up with me? So weird with my history. I just really like the whole going about life thing without worrying about boys.... I have no idea what my life will hold in the next two years...will I start teaching? go to grad school? what do I go to grad school for? Choral conducting? music education? I'm totally clueless, and I kind of like only having to worry about that, instead of what some guy thinks.
So here's the deal with Will... it's really weird...and I just kind of ignore any awkwardness b/c it isn't really as awkward as you might think. So over the summer I broke off the engagement hoping it would give him some motivation to get off of his ass and do something with his life. No such luck...and in the process I kind of just stopped caring about the whole situation and currently have no romantic feelings for him. So like 2 months ago I told him I didn't want to be in a relationship with him, and so we're not. Yes we still live together and yes we have a puppy together. The puppy thing probably wasn't the best idea, but it'll work out. Now...it took Will a while to get the hint that we weren't together and he kept trying to do everything he used to do, but I shut it down pretty early and now we're good. There really isn't that much awkward...you'd think it'd be pretty bad, but we're fine as long as he doesn't try to feel me up. But since we broke up, he has taken it upon himself (something very rare for him...) to apply to attend orlando culinary institute and will be going there next semester. It took him long enough, but w/e. I don't anticipate ever wanting to be with him again, but I don't want to be with anyone right now, so I can't really say that for sure. Everyone thinks he's gay anyways.
I really need to practice this week... My senior recital is April 10th at 4pm...that better be on your calendars right now. I intend to have another really good semester vocally. I improved a lot this semester and I sound pretty damn good right now.
I really need to go to sleep...I've become nocturnal and I don't like it.
I'll be home this friday and I want to go out. We should do that. Downtown melbourne maybe? If you're the bar type, you should come. Matt's Casbah(sp?) is pretty nice.
So I recently discovered Pandora, and I can't believe I've been living without it for so long. I LOVE it! it chooses such good music for me. Music by bands I've never heard of, but greatly enjoy.
Grey's Anatomy makes me cry a lot, and I kind of like it. It's been awhile since I've cried, and it feels remarkably nice. I'm a notorious cryer, and not doing it is just kind of weird for me... it makes me feel better to cry sometimes. Especially when I don't have a real reason my own to cry.
ok, shower now, and then sleep...I promise! Anyone wanna go dancing thursday?