it's back
that feeling is back.
that feeling of "hah what did you expect?"
that feeling of "why did you let go of your principles that had done you good for so long?"
that feeling of "you totally disappointed yourself by hoping"
that feeling of "serves you right for breaking your shell"
that feeling of "you knew that you didn't need people, so why did you make yourself to be needy now"
that feeling of "back to square one baby, and this time, don't screw up by expecting happiness, especially from people, or happiness that needs to be shared"
it's back. yep, it's back.
that feeling of "hah what did you expect?"
that feeling of "why did you let go of your principles that had done you good for so long?"
that feeling of "you totally disappointed yourself by hoping"
that feeling of "serves you right for breaking your shell"
that feeling of "you knew that you didn't need people, so why did you make yourself to be needy now"
that feeling of "back to square one baby, and this time, don't screw up by expecting happiness, especially from people, or happiness that needs to be shared"
it's back. yep, it's back.