On Fear
I have not destroyed all my fears, have not scoured every one of them from my soul.
Once, this is what I thought was needed.
( I have become a hunter of fear. )
Once, this is what I thought was needed.
( I have become a hunter of fear. )
Fear is an important trigger that 'there is pain here' whether that refers to physical injury or emotional risk. When I realize that I'm feeling or reacting in fear, first I try a "will the thing I fear kill or seriously injure me?" (for example, leaping off a cliff or walking alone at night through a high-crime part of town) check. If it's not a 'self-preservation' fear, but rather a reaction to the unknown or the unknowable, then of late I've been trying very hard to set my shoulders and RUN straight at what I'm afraid of.
I had been thinking that this was killing my fears and being bothered that they weren't 'going away' when I did it, but rather just hanging out around the edges of my head going, "by the way, this is scary," intermittently. I read what you wrote and I'm reevaluating, thinking that maybe my approach is my way of saying to my fear, "I may be ascared of THAT but I ain't ascared of YOU." And I think that the real paralysis in fear does come from a fear of the fear rather than a fear of the 'thing' a lot of times.
Thanks for posting this. It's an interesting thing I'll need to be thinky about for the next few days to really get a handle on, and I like it when people introduce those into my brain.
Much love,
Rowan
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